Starting to walk on a new path *Post for 9/15/12

If you are a regular here, you know by now, that I am struggling with my weight 2 years post gastric bypass.  I am determined to get back to where I want to be.  I know it sounds like I am beating a dead horse, but you have no idea how disappointed I am in my self.  I have let outside influences and life in general get in my way. 

My health screening opened up my eyes in a big way.  Yes, I passed 3 out of 5 of my screenings but I am now in tuned of what I need to do.  For myself.  For my health.  For my self esteem.  I have let myself go and this is just plain sad.  I don't need or want pity, I don't need or want lectures, i got this, trust me.

Went to the Rivertown Trail in Newburgh and thought I was going to work 5 miles ended up walking 10.75 right off the bat.  I thought we were badass, today not feeling so badass.  Feeling more like I will never walk again and I am already cringing thinking about climbing all the stairs at work.  I am not giving up on walking just decided after I got out of bed that I needed to take today off from walkin and resume tomorrow. 

I will do some exercise today later on.  Today starts my diet.  I know I have said this over and over but I am dead. serious. period. 

My new theme song is Stronger by Kelly Clarkson
You know the bed feels warmer
Sleeping here alone
You know I dream in color
And do the things I want
You think you've got the best of me
Think you've had enough the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken downThink that I'd come running back
Baby, you don't know me, 'cause you're dead wrong
Chorus:What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes you fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone
Bridge:What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
You heard that I was starting over with someone new
They told you I was moving on, over you
You didn't think that I'd come back
I'd come back swinging
You tried to break me, but you see
Chorus:What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes you fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone
Bridge:What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout me
You know in the end the day you left is just my beginning
In the end

I shall overcome!!