About a week ago I went to Newburgh Rivertown Trail to walk for the very first time with coworkers and we ended up walking the whole course, which by the time we made it back to the car was almost an 11 mile hike. Not a great thing to do starting out walking again. But I felt like it was a "notch" in my belt, if you will, to say I had done it. Made me feel good. Hurt a few days later, but overall, made me feel I was on the right track.
Most of you know, I am a stress eater. Just because a person has Gastric Bypass surgery does not change this fact. Deep down, those old triggers that got you where you were when you had the surgery, are still there. Some people manage that little devil on their shoulder better than others. I am not that strong. Or so I thought. Now, I beg to differ. I am going to show that devil who is boss and YES I might even start taking names!
With that being said, I am going to alter my eating habits, notice I didn't say "change." Because to me "change" is a work in progress not something that you can do overnight. Or at least, this is how I feel. You know how you feel when you hear a trigger word, like for me, "diet" makes me antsy. Healthier is a better word. I can wrap my head around that better than I can "diet." Even though, truthfully I will or should be on healthier path for the rest of my life. I am going to cut out some of the things that have been a crutch to me, like I stated, I am not quitting all of my "bad habits" cold turkey. That way never works for me, and makes me more miserable than when I started a new endeavor.
I did lose 3 lbs last week. I only exercised a few times. Today all that changes. I went walking at the Newburgh Trail again this morning, but only managed to walk 3 miles because of the persistent pain in my left side. But you know what, it was a start. And every day before I go to work, I am planning on taking Baby to Wesselman's to walk, and when it rains, I will be hauling my butt to Washington Square Mall before work. I used to walk all of the time, and I enjoyed it. I would enjoy it more with music, if someone will ever help me set that up, but it is a good reflection time. Baby needs to lose some weight also so we will both be benefiting from this. I am excited! I plan to walk every day and increasing my miles every day or ok, let's be more realistic, every week.
Here's where it is time to get REAL. When I came back from my vacation in May before I started my new job I had gained between 6-9 lbs. Since I started my new job in early June, I have gained 15 lbs. That is totally unacceptable and I take 110% of the blame. I am ashamed, I am disappointed in myself. But you know what, it is by far not the end of the world, and I am determined (still) by December 15th to be down at least 20 lbs. For those that don't have the faith in me, that I am finding deep within myself, I say sit back and watch me! I might just surprise you and me both!
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