Wednesday, August 29, 2012

It's an Animal House.....and we wouldn't have it any other way!

All of my life we have always had dogs and cats.   So my love for animals started early.  I remember my first real pet, was a black Poodle, which we picked out on Father's Day one year.  My dad thought since we got the poodle on Father's Day we should name him Papa.  Thankfully, our new dog didnt get stuck with that name.  Somehow, he ended with the name Pooch Sir Dino O'Bryan.  We called him Pooch or Poochie, he was such a good dog. 

We have had several dogs and cats since then, my dad didn't always agree to keep them, but somehow we managed to sneak a few in here and there through the years. 

Today, we have 2 dogs and 2 cats.  Miss Kitty was a stray cat, who we adopted when she was 6 months old.  She will be 11 in December and still looks like a kitten, she was a runt.  Cute as can be but she is definitely my mom's cat.  Miss Kitty sleeps with my mom and steers clear from me.  When she was an outdoor cat, Miss Kitty used to curl up on my lap and purr.  Since we have adopted her and had to give her medicine from time to time, I think she remembers that and holds that against me.  Every now and then she will "let" me pet her, and that is just what I mean. 

Pepper, who Brittanee picked out July 2011 at Petsmart, is a Hemingway cat.  What kind of cat is that, you ask?  One with extra toes on each paw.  She literally looks like she walks with a mitten on, especially the front paws.  Because Pepper was pretty sick when she was a young kitten, she was never declawed as we have had all of our cats done in the past.  So every 6-8 weeks I take Pepper to have nail caps put on so she cant scratch and she feels like she is getting a pedicure.  :)  Brittanee was supposed to take Pepper after she graduated from college but because I was unemployed for 11 months and spent every day with Pepper when she was sick and when she wasn't ....I can't part with her.  She is frisky and gets in a lot of "kitty cat trouble" as I tell her, but right before we go to sleep she is a smoochy little furball.  Pepper turned 1 in May. 

Sasha, our German Shepherd, has been with us for about 6 years, she is around 10 or 11 years old and has some hip problems.  Sasha is a needy dog and has separation anxiety when my mom is not near her.  She paces the floor and sometimes wont eat if my mom is not home.  Sasha is very gentle for being a German Shepherd.  A loving dog, she could take or leave the cats.  She loves her sister Baby.  Sasha never really knew how to play with any toys and still doesn't.  She loves bones. 

Then enter Baby, she is 6 years old.  We have had Baby 4 years.  She was a stray that hung around our neighborhood for 2 years and managed to get hit my a car (and heal herself), have a litter of puppies (unfortunately they didn't survive), and evade the dog catchers for 2 years!  Baby is part White Shepherd and part Chow.  She is very loving.  She sits on her butt like a person, she thinks she is a lap dog at times at 65 lbs.  She loves Pepper and Pepper loves her too.  Baby likes to be touching someone most of the time.  I would love to have seen Baby as a puppy. 

I also have a grandcat, Teddy.  He is so presh!  His eyes hold so much expression and he is a big boy!  He is a Maine Coon cat.  He is the true definition of a cat, he only wants you around on his terms.  He doesn't like to be held (like Pepper), and when he has had enough he will smack you with his ever so powerful paw.  We will be keeping Teddy for a few months when Brittanee moves, until she is settled.  Pepper will like that.  She and Miss Kitty still do not get along so we must keep them apart.  When Teddy went back to Indy a few weeks ago, Pepper was depressed for 2 days.  Yes, they fight, but not hissing and carrying on, and finally Pepper has met her match.  Teddy doesn't start the arguments but he is not innocent either.  Who would have thought Pepper would ever be able to get along with another cat?  Well, that is what happened, finally, with Teddy.  We welcome Teddy back with open arms...even though he could care less. 

Our animals are more than just animals, they are members of our family.  I know some people don't like pets, some are allergic to them, some don't treat them well, some have wayyy tooo many, etc.  Miss Kitty, Pepper, Sasha, Baby and Teddy are near and dear to our hearts, and yes, this an animal house and it will always be that way!!

Animals lovers unite!!!

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

No, I am just not interested......

Many people are members of Plenty of Fish, Match.com, all sorts of dating places or finding "true love."  This is NOT for me, not my cup of tea.  Sure, I do know some people that have met their "soulmate" on these types of websites and for them I say kudos to you and yours. 

No, I am not interested in you fixing me up with your cousin's best friend's brother, etc.  I am happy with the way my life is now.  If I find Prince Charming (I know he is out there trying to find me and he is a man so therefore wont ask for directions), I will let ya'll know.  I appreciate the offers for blind dates, dating sites, and the like.  If I cant meet a decent man on my own then I feel I am meant to be single.  That is it!  Nothing more to discuss.

I am not knocking these sites, mind you, if it works for you, or has worked for your grandma, hey go for it.  Be safe, be smart and be careful! 

Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker. ~Author Unknown
I am not giving up!  I am just not looking so hard right now.  If things are meant to be they will find a way.  Trust me.  I am ok with this.  I really have some working on Kazi to do before I bring someone else into my craziness. 

I wanted to say how much I appreciated the kind offers on this matter though, it is just not the road I am wanting to travel. 

If grass can grow through cement, love can find you at every time in your life. ~Cher

I truly believe that! 

For those of you that have significant others, I am very happy for you, now please, please, be happy for me!  Someday my Prince will come.....

Drama free (Posting for 8/27/12)

I have been working at my new job almost 3 months and really on the phones on my own for almost 1 month.  Granted, I am still new and don't know a lot of the folks working in the call center, but it seems to be a pretty drama free place to work.  I am happy to be in those surroundings! 

In fact, I can say I am drama free in all aspects of my life, except financial, but that is an ongoing battle. 

Every where you go in life, something doesnt measure up quite to your standards, and yes,  I have many questions (big surprise) but for the most part I enjoy helping people on the other end of the phone.  It is quite interesting, talking to people from all over and different walks of life.  Sure, I did that in collections too, but this is more rewarding, I guess you could say.  My collector comes out every now and then on the phone and for the first time in 10 years I wanted to say thank you for calling "fifth third bank."  Where that came from I have no idea.  Luckily I didn't say that.  Could have been a monitored call and I would have been in trouble!  :) 

I am not as stressed over the QA process either, we got to tour it as part of our training and they explained what they look for and everything.  I am sure not all my calls are 100% but I take pride in my calls and it is something I am good at.  I have been in customer service for over 20 years. 

Hope your life is drama free and that you are smiling at the end of this post!

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Everything Happens for a Reason

Just as summer, winter and fall are seasons
Everything that happens in your life, happens for reasons

Some we may not always understand at the time
But letting go of the ones that bring you down is not a crime

Wasting time on those that dont really care
When it is your soul that you chose to bare

Just let them move on, leave without a trace
And someday soon, you will find that smile return to your face

It may not be today, tomorrow or the next day
But I assure you good things will come your way

Don't dwell on the what ifs, the future holds something brand new
It will be personalized, from the man upstairs, just for you

Memories you will always hold dear
True friends will always be near

Reach out and tell your friends that you love them and are glad they are part of your path
You don't need to count all your friends out, skip the Math

Love the ones that you hold dear to your heart
And the others...well it is time for them to depart

I may not have the perfect life, but I have the best friends on earth
And a daughter whom I have loved since her birth

May the sun shine on your and your dreams
And you never see Freddy Krueger in real life, or there would be screams

Remember though as you go through ups and downs
Smiles can easily turn into frowns

Everything happens for a reason, it's true
Be respectful and loving in all you say and do

 

Saturday, August 25, 2012

If you can't trust.....

Yourself, who can you trust?  I know I said that I wasn't going to talk about weight or the weighing in with Kazi any more for awhile, but I have to admit it folks, I am disappointed in myself.  So very disappointed. 

I gained 1 lb.  You are sitting there thinking what is wrong with that?  I can tell you lots!  I have to find something else to do besides snacking, because it is killing me.  I eat maybe 2 meals per day but the stuff in between is what is pushing me over the edge. 

Am a stress eater, always have been, guess I always will be.  Whenever I go to my family doctor he always tells me to avoid stress, yea, tell me how and I will get right on that.  I cant pin point one thing that I am stressed about, because my life is always one big stressor, due to one thing or the other.  But I manage.  Somehow I manage. 

I am going to try new techniques this week and see what happens.  I need a break through.  I am so depressed about this, really, I worked so hard up until now and now the devil is trying to sabotage me and my previous efforts.  I won't let him win!! 

Thanks for listening to this rant.  It has helped a little.  I need about a 30 day hiatus from this life and would like to trade with someone else for those 30 days.   If only.....

Friday, August 24, 2012

Quote Friday

Today feels like a Quote Friday, meaning I am going to place several quotes to sum up how I am feeling, and if you can relate to some, let me know.  I always love hearing from you! 

If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude.
Maya Angelou
 *This has always been one of my favorite Maya Angelou quotes!

There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”
Maya Angelou

Humor is merely tragedy standing on its head with its pants torn. ~Irvin S. Cobb

Common sense and a sense of humor are the same thing, moving at different speeds. A sense of humor is just common sense, dancing. ~William James

The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart. ~Elisabeth Foley

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive. ~Anäis Nin
In my friend, I find a second self. ~Isabel Norton

The odds of going to the store for a loaf of bread and coming out with only a loaf of bread are three billion to one. ~Erma Bombeck

Never do anything that you wouldn't want to explain to the paramedics. ~Author Unknown

It's annoying to be disapproved of by people who know only half the story - especially when you're not sure which half they know. ~Robert Brault, www.robertbrault.com

The only difference between a rut and a grave is their dimensions. ~Ellen Glasgow

Faith is a passionate intuition. ~William Wordsworth

It is often hard to distinguish between the hard knocks in life and those of opportunity. ~Frederick Phillips

Thanks for stopping by Kazi's Konnection for Quote Friday.  May each one of you out there have a wonderful day and weekend!  Ahhh the weekend will soon be here, how will you be spending it?!






Weighing in with Kazi will be on hiatus blog for 8/23

The weighing in with Kazi will be on a hiatus, only updating the last day of each month.  Right now, to put it bluntly, I need to get my shizz together.  I am yo-yoing like crazy and I just would like to find a happy medium. 

Thanks for the continued support through emails and texts, they are encouraging and full of love, which I dearly appreciate!  I am not going to put myself or anyone else through the misery of a weekly encounter until I am headed in the right direction once again. 

Peace love and weightloss!

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Learning to Trust

Remembering a much happier time, Kyle lit a candle during a church service to remember his wife, Gloria, and his son, Raphael Michael, who had both been taken away from him much too soon.  It had been 6 years already and every date of the anniversary they died in a horrible car crash, he came to light a candle in their honor.  Just a little token to let them know he had never forgotten them and never would. 

Gloria had been the love of his life the first time he spotted her across the courtyard on the college campus where they both attended.  At first, Gloria had wanted nothing to do with Kyle, thinking he was a party-er like most guys on campus.  Kyle had to prove himself time and again that he was not interested in the drinking, smoking or whole bar scene like most of the guys there on campus.  It took him about 4 months to get his point across to Gloria and she finally gave in and went out on a real date with him. 

She really wanted not to like him, but he was such a gentleman in every sense of the word.  Opeining up the car door for her, she had only thought that happened in movies and not in real life!  Gloria had a hard time trusting men, her dad had abandoned her mother several years earlier.  Leaving her mother to raise 7 kids without sending a dime to help out or ever looking back.  Because her mother didn't have much of an education herself she was forced to work at dead end jobs not making nearly enough to support herself much less 7 kids. 

After several months of trying to make everything work, her mother, Sylvia, was at her wits end.  She had asked family to help out and take some of the children until she could get "settled."  No one could or would help Sylvia, so she had no other choice but to do right by her children and turn 5 over to a foster care facility.  She kept two of her seven children, Dennis and Gloria.  They were the oldest and they could soon help out around the house.  It broke Sylvia's heart to let the other children-Estelle, Hal Jr, Ben, Gretchen & Lilly go, and she vowed that she would one day get them all back under one roof and things would be much better.

Because of this terrible time in her childhood when Gloria and her siblings had been separated, when Gloria was old enough she tried to locate all of her siblings.  She only had success in finding Hal Jr, who she could tell had a hardened heart from what had happened to him many years ago and one sister Lilly who said she was content in her new life and didn't want to relive any of the past and the memories that were associated with that part of her life.  Though, Gloria guessed she could understand those sentiments, it still broke her heart remembering the holidays when they were all together, in much happier times. 

Hal Jr. had always looked up to Gloria and she must admit she always liked to take him under her wing when it was necessary.  They had quite a bond, those two, at one time.  She was hoping that in time, when the wounds healed, they could be close once again.  Of course, she knew a large part of that would depend on Hal Jr.  Hal Jr. did not seem happy to be reunited with her or Dennis and after about 3 outings he had distanced himself from his siblings.  He didn't want to remember his old life.  He thought of their mother as a true angel and if he closed his eyes and fell deep in thought, he could still remember how she smelled.  She always smelled of fresh Ivory soap.  And sometimes flour.  The thought made him smile.

Hal Jr. never questioned his parents love for him and his siblings until that fateful night when he was told to pack a few things for a sleepover for about a weeks time.  He had hopes that he would see his father again and that his father wanted him to stay with him for awhile.  Those dreams suddenly came crashing down around him when he realized he would not be spending time with his dad, or anyone he knew or cared about. 

When he arrived at this new place he learned he was in a foster home, a place where you went, when your parents no longer wanted you.  Of course, now that he was older, a grown man, he knew that wasn't entirely true, to him now, it just meant when no one else could properly take care of you.  At the time, being a young boy and learning the first part, tore him up, he must admit.  He was often told he wasn't loved enough and that was why he had been brought there.  He didn't believe it at first but after being in this facility and in out of foster homes he started to believe truth in those spoken words.  Why was he so unlovable?  What did he do that was so awful? 

After being away from his family and familiar surroundings for awhile he became hardened to life and his heart had toughened as well.  Sad to say he had been sent to foster home after foster home, never letting anyone get too close to him, for fear his heart would break all over again, and he got into a little trouble here and there too, but he was smart enough to know jail was not the place he wanted to end up.  Deep down he knew he was a good soul just had bad things happen in his life.  If he cared to admit it, he had missed seeing Gloria.  Dennis, not so much, but Gloria had always stood up for him when kids were mean and picked on him for whatever reason it was when he was a little lad.  He admired Gloria, always had always would. 

When their mom, Sylvia passed away, he was immediately notified by Gloria.  Ah, Gloria, how he always looked up to her!  In the early days at the foster facility he would imagine Gloria coming through those heavy wooden doors saying they were going back home with there mom where they all belonged.  Of course, that never happened. 

When Hal Jr. first go the call of their mother's passing he couldn't decide whether to attend the funeral or not.  He had been to a funeral a time or two in his life, not something he particularly enjoyed too much, but then again who likes attending a funeral?

Gloria had said he could arrive early and help with the arrangements if he was interested in doing so.  He had no use for helping with the arrangements but he did decide to attend the funeral and the burial.  Walking up to the church where they all used to attend as a family brought tears to his eyes, that was unexpected for him.  He spotted Dennis right away.  Dennis stood to shake his brothers hand and then reached to give him a big bear hug which made Hal Jr stiffen.  Dennis made small talk with Hal Jr and introduced him to his wife of 11 years, Mary.  They had 2 young uns at home and since they were only 3 and 5 they were much too little to attend this service.  They were home with a sitter.  Hal Jr was asked to meet his 2 nieces after the ceremony but being the loner that he was, did not commit or decline the invitation.

When Hal Jr saw Gloria tears immediately sprung into his eyes.  The years had been kind to her, she looked the same sweet Gloria that he remembered all those years ago.  The funeral service and burial for their mother proved to be much harder than anticipated....for all of them.

After the funeral as previously mentioned-Dennis, Hal Jr. and Gloria tried to keep in touch.  Hal Jr. held resentment that he knew was not Gloria or Dennis' fault but he chose to withdraw from them and their lives.

This is why Gloria had such a hard time, in general, trusting men.  First her father abandoned them, then Hal Jr. left their lives.  Though she still kept in touch with Dennis an on occasion still tried to find their father, each time turned up nothing.  Nothing at all.  She too, felt disheartened, at times.  So when she met Kyle, she was very skeptical.

At times, Gloria would intentionally pick a fight with Kyle just to see if he would leave her.  He never did.  Kyle became a constant in her life and in no time at all in her heart as well.  She was a sophomore and he a junior when they met in college.  They dated for 4 years before getting engaged.  They were engaged only 6 months when neither of them could wait any longer to become husband and wife. 

Married life agreed with both Gloria and Kyle.  Kyle was the only child born to Alice and George and they were tickled to welcome Gloria into their close family.  Dennis and his family were the only ones who attended the wedding from Gloria's side of the family, but that was ok, she assumed that was how it was meant to be.  She had tried to find Hal Jr. again but to no avail. 

Before walking down the aisle, she had said a quick prayer in her head for Hal Jr.  Then she walked down the aisle into the arms of the only man that had been a constant in her life and she knew he would be with her til death do they part. 

Gloria had become a nurse and after graduating nursing school she landed a head nurse position at Mitchell General Hospital, where the staff loved her.  She worked on the heart unit and it was a job she enjoyed.  Kyle had graduated with a teaching degree and had a hard time finding a full time teaching job.  In the meantime, until he landed a full time teaching job, he began coaching special needs kids part time.  Yes, it was only part time, but something Kyle really came to enjoy doing.  Many nights Kyle and Gloria would discuss Kyle going back to grad school to get a degree where he could teach Special Ed.  Gloria assured Kyle that she could manage their bills if he chose to go back to school.

After two months of deliberating Kyle enrolled full time in grad school.  This program would take 18 months to complete, and if he needed to could get a part time job to help out.  They would cross that bridge if they needed to come to that.  Once Kyle graduated they both decided that would be a good time to start a family.  They both wanted kids, how many, they couldn't seem to agree, but they knew they could provide a loving home for at least 2 or 3.  Kyle loved his classes, loved volunteering and loved his wife, Gloira, with all of his heart!!

About one year into Kyle's studies, Gloria began to feel sick on occasion and one night on the way home from work she stopped at a local drug store to pick up a pregnancy test.  She waited until the next morning, barely sleeping at all with anticipation what that little stick would soon reveal.  Pink would equal positive.  Green would equal negative.    To her amazement, it was pink.  Her and Kyle were going to be parents!   

Now how to tell her husband!  They had planned to wait until he was finished with school, which would be in about another 8 months.  That night she had fixed his favorite dinner chicken lasagna and apple pie.  She had taped a card on the bottom of his dessert plate that said "congratulations you are going to be a daddy."  She watched him intently when he read that special message, tears welled up in his eyes and he rushed to pick her up in his arms!  He hugged her so tightly and was thrilled with the news!  They truly loved each other and even though this news came earlier than they both planned or expected, both were over the moon thrilled with this news.

Gloria called the next day to make a doctor's appointment to officially confirm that they would soon be parents.  Yes, it was true, they were due to have their baby in about 6 months, it was much too soon to know if the baby was a boy or a girl, but they would soon have a little peanut to call their own.  They shared the news with their families, and again, Gloria felt a twinge of regret when she couldn't share this news with Hal Jr., it was like he left without a trace and fell off the face of the earth.  Gloria longed to see her other siblings as well but she had heard over the years through the grapevine that her other 4 siblings had been adopted and moved out of state.  Kyle was very attentive during Gloria's pregnancy and could not have possibly loved her more than he did at this very moment.

In two more months he would graduate with his new degree, they would have a new baby, Gloria would take some time off of work and their life would become a whole new chapter of awesomeness.  

Hal Jr. had tried to find Gloria on occasion, didn't realize she had married, and was about to give up when he had a premonition that she might need him.  So he did the only thing he could do to find her, contact Dennis.  Dennis informed him that Gloria had gotten married to Kyle, a very nice guy, and they were due to have their first baby in a matter of weeks.  Dennis let Hal Jr. know that him contacting Gloria would mean the world to her.  He took that information and tucked it in the back of his heart where some of it still cared about the things.  He dialed her number with a shaking hand, she answered.  At first he thought about hanging up, then he let her know it was her long lost baby brother on the other end.  She cried when he told her that!!    He didn't know if that was because she was emotional from the baby, or what, he had heard women tend to get really emotional when they are expecting a baby.  They talked for a few minutes, then Gloria mentioned to him once the baby was born (she kept calling it peanut) and he was hoping that wasn't the name they had chosen, that she wanted him to meet her wonderful husband, Kyle, and their um...peanut.  He agreed to do this, gave her his phone# and said he would be in touch.

Two weeks before the baby was due, Kyle was offered a full time job at a local grade school for a music and arts teacher for Special Education.  Gloria had known all along with Kyle's charm and many talents, things would fall into place for him.  This job would be waiting for Kyle once he graduated in a month.  Kyle and a very pregnant Gloria went out to celebrate.  It seemed that this young couple had it all.  Good educations, good jobs, a peanut on the way and most of all they had each other.

The next day was a normal day like any other, Gloria kissed a passed out Kyle holding his laptop on his lap in the middle of a research paper.  She slipped quietly out of the door and was on her way to work, driving through town, somewhat distracted, and she proceeded through a red light, not noticing a black Mustang speeding through the same stop light hitting her head on.  Her mini van spun several times and then landed on its side.  The Mustang kept going.  A passerby stopped to help the pregnant woman in the minivan, but she had no pulse.  Choking back tears, he dialed 911 for help.  An ambulance came and rushed the dead woman and baby to the hospital, neither survived. 

Kyle was busy at home cleaning, preparing a nice evening at home for his very pregnant wife, with a surprise dinner guest, her brother, Hal Jr.  When he got that dreadful call that changed his life forever.  His wife was the absolute love of his life and she was now dead and was their peanut, their son.  Kyle blacked out for several weeks somehow he managed to get through the double funeral.  Dennis and Hal Jr. were both there, Hal had wished often that he had kept in better contact with this sister, his guardian angel.  It really was such a blur to him.  If only he would have driven her to work that morning, if only he would have done this, if only he would have done that, if only......

Kyle started his new job 2 months after this the tragic accident.  The staff was very understanding and patient with him.  He threw himself into his work.  He loved his special ed students and treated them as if they were his own. 

He knew that Gloria looked down on him from heaven and continued to watch over him as his personal guardian angel.  He thought about ending his own life a time or two but that just wasn't his style, he never ever backed away from a challenge.  And his life, was now a challenge, his challenge to overcome.  Gloria had been a challenge from the first day he had laid eyes on her and that turned out to be a bigger blessing than he could have ever imagined.  He would not change a thing, except of course, Gloria and peanut dying.  In the end he knew that they were both happy, they were both being well cared for, they were both together, and they were both waiting to see him one day.  Knowing that, each anniversary on the date of their deaths, lighting the candle in the church in their memory, gave Kyle some peace, if only for a brief moment.


Tuesday, August 21, 2012

The Ultimate Betrayal

Sally was at her desk at work, listening to her Ipod, waiting for the switchboard to ring.  A typical day for Sally working at the law office of Schmitt, Taylor & Lester.  Sally Kissinger, just your average run of the mill young woman, in her late 20's, never married, hardly dated, a little on the shy side.  Sally had excelled through college with a degree in Fashion Design, only to learn that Fashion Designing did not pay the bills, being a secretary at the law firm, did just that, and she got to meet many people in her capacity, however small it was. 

On a particular Thursday in June, Mr. Sellars, walked through the law office door, and instantaneously, Sally was smitten.  She couldn't get up to offer Mr. Sellars a cup of coffee without spilling it all over herself, the floor, or him.  Only thing, when this usually happened, and she hated to admit it, it happened more than she cared to admit because she was a klutz of sorts, Mr. Sellars just smiled and assured Sally that it was just fine.  He liked the shade of brown his shirt was turning, he said that with his head cocked to one side grinning at her.  Sally didn't know whether he was joking or if he was trying to make her relax and add a little humor to her day.  She secretly hoped it was the latter part. 

One thing the partners always told her is that she needed more fun in her life.  They often tried to fix her up with a cousin, another attorney, a neighbor, someone they knew casually, etc.  She always thanked them graciously but never took them up on their offers to set her up on a blind date.  Her best friend in the whole wide world, Madison, attempted to set her up on blind dates in the past that turned out just horrid.  No, Sally, would not subject herself to that again....EVER. 

Sally hung out with her best friend on the weekends, they would go to the Mall and hang out for hours just window shopping.  Neither had much money to spend on frivolous things but they enjoyed laughing and catching up from their week at work.   On occasion they would go see a movie, they both liked action and comedy flicks. 

Madison Hooper, worked as a journalist for a popular magazine, Kolor me Single.  She enjoyed her job, would like to climb the ladder someday and maybe run the magazine.  Her boss, Tyler Mabrey, was the cutest thing she had ever seen, but very married and very off limits!  Unfortunately, but a girl could still fantasize, couldn't she? 

Madison was informed she would be in charge of training an intern for the next 3 months and show him the ropes along the way.  Great sighed Madison, some nerd that I have to lead by a collar for the next 3 months!  To Madison's surprise, this "nerd" aka Dakota Smyth, was one of the hottest guys she ever saw, so much in fact, she forgot about how cute she thought her boss Tyler what's his name was. 

Dakota, seemed wordly, he told Madison about his travels, that he always wanted to be a journalist because his mom was when she was still alive.  He said he shared her passion for this line of work and wanted to follow in her footsteps.  She wanted to ask how his mom died, but didn't.  This was a stranger after all.  Soon Madison and Dakota were fast friends, she wanted more, but could tell he wasn't interested in her in that way.  Madison asked Dakota out for a drink with her and Sally one night and the sparks flew all over the damn place....for Dakota and Sally.  Sullenly, Madison watched as Sally and Dakota hit it off and forgot, at times, that she was still sitting at the table.  Madison excused herself to go to the ladies room and never went back to the table.  She hailed a cab and went home instead.

How could Sally betray her like that?  Sally knew that Madison had a HUGE crush on Dakota, he was all she had been able to talk about since he walked into the office at Kolor me Single.  How dare her best friend flirt her way with Dakota!  The more she thought about it the angrier she had become.  What seemed like an eternity later, which was only 20 minutes after she had been home, she got a text from Sally asking if she was ok?  "Are you freaking kidding me" is what she wanted to reply, but what she actually replied was "Yea, just not feeling that great, didn't want to ruin your great evening."  She heard NOTHING from Sally or Dakota the rest of the evening.

The next day at work was a bit awkward, it probably didn't have to be, but it was and Madison made it that way.  She barked orders at Dakota, sent him on insignificant stories, basically gave him crap work.  She was angry.  At Dakota for looking at Sally in a way he never looked at her, for letting herself get carried away by another pretty face,  for many things.  She took the rest of the afternoon off to clear her head.  Did she want to lose her best friend over some guy that neither of them knew very well?  Did she want to lose her sense of humor and her friendship that she had been forming with Dakota?  Life just didn't seem fair, she was the one that got dates with nice cute guys and Sally barely got noticed....until now.  That was the problem, Madison, decided she was jealous!

Madison decided she wanted to keep both Sally and Dakota in her life, so she would just need to suck it up and get over her jealousy.  This wasn't worth losing years of best friendship with Sally!  The three of them continued to hang out together and the more she was around Dakota and Sally, the more intense it seemed to her. 

 Finally one day, she called Sally at work and told her that she needed to stop seeing Dakota.  She had told Sally that he was married back in Wyoming where he had come from and he had 2 little kids that he never saw.  Madison knew it was a stretch, but she wanted them to not be together.  In the worst of ways.  Sally seemed to be quite shaken up, and for a brief moment, Madison thought about telling her it was all a lie, but held her tongue.  This would bring her best friend back and maybe just maybe Dakota would turn his gorgeous pale blue eyes on her! 

Sally avoided Dakota's calls for a few weeks, and even accepted a date with Mr. Sellars, whom she had previously spilled coffee on at the law office.  Mr. Sellars, turned out to be quite the charmer, and a very nice man, just not for her.  She missed Dakota.  She longed to reach for the phone and call him, just to hear him say something that made her laugh, to be silly together.  But how could she face him when he hadn't been honest with her?  A wife for god's sake?  How do you forget to mention that?  And 2 kids?  That he hadn't seen in a long time?  My gosh, these are two little angels not some cats found on the side of the road! 

Sally and Madison went to the Mall one particular Saturday and were walking around.  Over lunch, Sally confessed to Madison how depressed she had been about being so wrong about Dakota.  Madison asked if she had heard from him, Sally said every day he leaves me a message begging me to call him, this has been going on for 3 weeks now and I just don't understand why he is so adamant if he is has a wife and kids back home....Sally choked back tears.  Madison, had a brief flutter of guilt.  She had to admit it did tear her up seeing Sally so sad, but also, she was loving the extra attention from Dakota, although he didn't look at her in the same way he did Sally.  She just couldn't tell Sally at this point that it wasn't true about the wife and kids, she just couldn't.  Maybe the devil made her do it. 

After avoiding Dakota for 5 weeks, Sally ran into him at the grocery store.  He tried to talk to her and she just spat at him "go and try talking to your wife and 2 kids back in Wyoming."  Dakota looked hurt and puzzled, "what on earth are you talking about?"  She said Madison told me about your wife and 2 kids that you never see!  Dakota tried to explain that that all was a lie, that Madison was trying to come in between them for some reason.  Sally ran out of the store in tears!!  She didn't answer her phone later when Madison called, or when Dakota tried to call again.

Early the next morning, Sally went into work and asked one of the partners a HUGE favor, she asked Tom Taylor, to run a background check on Dakota Smyth for her.  Sure enough, no wife or kids, never been married!  Everything he ever told her about himself had checked out, about his travels, about winning prizes in journalism contests, about his mother dying.  She asked for the day off as she had some confronting to do.  She marched into the office of Madison at Kolor me Single and confronted her.  The door she left open so Dakota could hear every word, and whoever else was standing near with their ears pressed to the glass. 

Madison broke into tears and tried to explain her jealousy at the time, how she always got the looks, whistles, men in general, and when the tables turned and Dakota had fancied Sally and not her, she didn't know what to do.  She begged Sally to forgive her.  Sally couldn't.  She rushed into the waiting arms of the one man that cared enough to hang around, when she hadn't given him any reason to do so.  Yes, her dreams were starting to come true, her future looked bright, and Dakota would be right by her side every step of the way. 

Losing Madison had been hard, even harder was not having her as a maid of honor at the wedding, funny how things turn out in the end.  Upon arriving back from their honeymoon in the Bahamas, they ran into Madison at the airport, were very cool to one another...and to Sally's delight she had a nerd of a man on her arm.  Time to settle princess, I have the knight in shining armour this time.......Sally thought happily to herself.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Learning lots in my new job

Most of you know that I had toyed with the idea of going back to school while I was unemployed, I even toured a couple of campuses.  In the end, I had decided I was too old, or my brain was too old to comprehend some of that stuff, so I decided to find a full time job instead.  Enter Vectren. 

I must admit, I learned a lot in training, and I was overwhelmed in training.  In fact, I hated it!  I am not good with tests and things like that, I am a more hands on kind of person.  I didn't "hate" it in the sense that I thought it wasn't necessary, I hated it how uptight it made me feel. 

Being on the floor on my own, I have learned so much more than I did in my 9 weeks of training.  Not a bad thing, just real life experiences.  I want to say that I think the trainers did an awesome job, though to me, it was still overwhelming.  I am so much happier being on my own and learning the things I learn to get better in my job.  I find out every day things I could have done, should have done, but so far my scores are decent and I am not complaining and so far neither is anyone else, so I guess I am heading in the right direction. 

Sure, I have had some job offers since I started at Vectren 2 months ago, and I pursued one hot and heavy until some things I found out about the job steered me away, far far away from them.  I am no longer looking, I think I found my niche.  Looking forward to the overtime that will soon be heading my way and I will reach out and grab that! 

Though the pay scale is not what I am accusomtomed to, the job, the people, the activities, and respect make it all worth it.  I never thought I would say that, but it is so different from where I came from.  I am not watched every second of the day, I don't need a babysitter and they recognize this, and as long as I am doing my job to my full potential, I can do things on the side. 

If anyone is interested in joining the Vectren team, let me know, they will be starting a new class in either December or January!  And no i don't get any kind of referral bonus, just wanted to throw that out there in case anyone was interested.  It is a great place to work, great benefits, people are super nice (for the most part), and they do a lot for their employees.  My supervisor and team lead are great individuals and very encouraging!!

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Teddy Bear

I met my grandcat Teddy Bear a few weeks back
I didn't expect to care so much for him and smack!
His orange fur and yellow eyes
Have me hooked, making it hard to say our goodbyes
Pepper, who we thought would never be able to interact with another cat
Misses him like crazy, what's up with that?
He has a personality all of his own that is for sure
Sitting like royalty waiting for me to serve his food, his love is unwavering and pure
To this cat that has captured our hearts
Making it sad to see him go when he departs
I know Brittanee is taking good care of him and such
But we have come to love him, in this short time, so very much
Teddy Bear you have a forever home in Indiana, whether it be here to there
You have made an impact, with your grace and demeanor, the way you stop and stare
Take good care of Brittanee, make her smile, laugh, and sleep by her side
Remember not to pee on your next car ride
Play with your birdie, or one of your many toys
Know that you are loved, and one of the good ole boys
Til we meet again Teddy Bear,
Don't get into a lot of mischief and trouble, just take care!

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Weighing in with Kazi

As most of you know,  I was writing this series "Weighing in with Kazi" on Facebook, now I have switched it to this, my blog.  I will be writing this series every Saturday on here since that is my official weigh day. 

Though I have had a horrible eating week as such, I am not complaining at all today, I lost .4, which is not a huge success but you know what, it wasn't a gain!  With Brittanee leaving today, I can't blame her for it all, but she made a lot of junk when she was here and I couldn't resist, I will be getting back on track. 

Plus my walking buddy needs to get better so we can get our groove on.  Once I start my walking routine my weightloss will be mucho better.  I walk at work and still use the stairs several times a day but it's not enough.  Plus now that the Wii is working again (kudos to Brittanee) I can get back into my exercising regiman on there. 

I am a work in progress and so is my weightloss.  I am thankful for each day that I am given, whether I mess up or not.  I am losing weight for myself, no one else, and my struggles are my own.  I admit to faults, several, but I also know through faith and much inspiration that I am not giving up any time soon.  I will survive!  And I will lose this weight.  Gotta have faith, faith, faith as George Michael sings!!

Thanks for dropping in the Kazi Konnection, your visits always warm my heart.  :)

No vacation for me in 2013 for 8/17

Drum roll please, I have decided to opt out of taking a vacation in 2013 and buy a newer car instead, notice not a "new" car mind you.  But I have to do something.  I have a few options in mind, only time will tell how this scenario plays out.  At this point, I think this is much more important than a vacation.  Maybe I can sneak in a couple of days in Nashville or somewhere else for a weekend rendevous.  Who knows?! 

Make up for Thursday 8/16

Who would have ever thought that life would get in the way causing me not to be able to keep up with at the very least, this daily blog, well my friends, it has happened.  But alas, even though, again, I am not technically writing it each day, I will make up for posts I missed so at the end of the year I can still say I logged 365 blogs.  Cheating?  Who cares?!  I certainly don't and I doubt many of you do either. 

I had to make up some time at work on Thursday because Baby had to be seen again at the dreadful vet at Petsmart for diarrhea, and vomiting.  Their caring level was ok, their attitude was completely unsatisfactory and I will be sending a nasty email to corporate this weekend.  We will NEVER take another living, breathing creature of ours to Petsmart for ANY kind of grooming, not even a nail trim.  I am not quite sure I will ever step foot in that store again, time will tell. 

So, on with the story, I worked from 8:15 am to 7 pm and that was the night it stormed  and I got my first 2 hours of overtime!  Easy money working outages, and I must say I am looking forward to my stint when I am able to be added to the "call in" list, the only thing I worry about is, I am such a sound sleeper, just hope I can hear when they call me.  So, I ended up working from 8:15 am to 9pm.  Very worth it in the end, no complaints here!

I was beyond exhausted when I got home, think I chilled with the fam, maybe 20 minutes and then it was off to bed for me.  Thus no writing on this blog....

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Sleepless in Da Ville

There for awhile I was having normal sleep patterns and now here I am not sleeping very many hours again.  I am not sure what it is going on, but it is taking a toll on me.  I am flat out exhausted.  Yea, I realize all I do is sit on my butt for 8 hours but I am worn out. 

I just want to sleep.  All night.  For more than 5 hours at a time.  Please hear my prayer. 
Goodnite one and all, sweet dreams to you and yours! 

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Labels.....

You know everyone judges people whether they admit to it or not.  You meet someone for the very first time and those first impressions are so important.  I don't believe they are the most important thing, however, just say for instance you meet someone for the first time and you think "this person is a snob" then you get to know them and they are the sweetest person ever.  How many times do you sit and watch people and label them?  That person is "fat", that person is "lazy", look at her "her clothes don't match", "she is wearing hooker shoes", "omg, she looks like a whore", "he's so cute", etc. 

Do you label people?  Do you know what people would labelyou as?  I am sure most would say I am a prankster, that loves life and loves to have fun, loves animals, Patrick Swayze, Chippendales, margaritas, and my family and friends! 

Monday, August 13, 2012

A mother & daughter outing.....

After the fiasco with Baby at Petsmart, we dropped the dogs off at home and my mom stayed and nurtured Baby. 

 Brittanee and I had a date to go to Olive Garden to celebrate her new job, which she will soon start.  The food was yummy, we both perused the menu to look at all the new items, when we both secretly knew we would order our traditional picks.  She, chicken alfredo, me, chicken scampi.  Our waiter, left a lot to be desired, not very friendly, spoke with an accent that made him hard to understand, etc.  We beat the rush hour of folks so we were able to walk right in and be seated, my kind of service!

After that we went to Sweet Ce Ce's, thanks to Judy Mac, who gave Brittanee a gift card for graduation, and we had a little dessert there.  Took home some Schlotsky's for my mom and then ventured off to my sister's in Hendo to see my grand niece, Macey and meet Thomas, Angie's 12 year old son.  Of course, we were there to see my sister, Marilyn, niece-MaKenzie, nephew-Michael, nephew-Matthew, and bro in law, Michael , too.  I think we ended up staying there about 3 hours.  It was a nice visit.  Took a few pictures, big surprise, eh?

Yesterday 8/12/12 All about Baby

Yesterday morning started out as any regular morning would.  Got up and got ready to take the girls, Baby and Sasha to Petsmart to get bathed and groomed.   Baby also got a hair cut.  Well, I should have known something was amiss because Baby literally didn't want to enter the doors at Petsmart and usually she is willing and eager.  I made her go in kicking and screaming, if you will.  Sasha marched on in. 

For those of you that do not know, Sasha is a full blooded German Shepherd, who is now 13 years old, she has hip problems, but other than that she seems to be in good shape for her age.  The vet is always surprised when she goes in for her yearly checkup because apparently German Shepherds rarely get that old.  For the most part, Sasha is a gentle giant. 

Baby, is a part white Shepherd mix, who alluded the dog catchers for over a year, had a litter of puppies who died in a cold winter, and let us adopt her into our hearts and home November 1st, 2008.  My mom always referred to her as the "little white dog" or "Baby" and once we took her to the vet and had to decide on a name "Baby" stuck.  I must say it fits her.  She is the sweetest thing ever!  She can sit on her butt like a human without ever having a day or training in her life. 

The groomers took our contact information told us that the girls would be ready in about 4 hours and that they would call us when they were ready.  My mom went along to help me take them and we had a few errands to run before returning home.  About 4 hours later, I get the call they are ready to be picked up.  We went to get them, were in line paying for their grooming, when one girl literally ran out of the grooming door with Baby in tow, apparently bleeding all over the floor.  Thankfully, I was in line and didn't see it, but I did see and hear the 2 girls with mops mopping it up.  Then one of the groomers rushed to us and told us as soon as we were done with this transaction we needed to get next door to the vet onsite, that Baby had split her toenail when trying to get out of the cage to go home.

After that, the vet on duty came out to talk to us, Dr Ramos, explained that Baby would need to be sedated and have her toenail removed.  It is highly painful and yada yada yada.  I told whoever would listen that we should get a refund, they did refund Baby's grooming fees, which they should have.  They paid for all the care Baby received at the vet, her medicine, the lampshade, and she has to go back on Wednesday to make sure that it is healing properly and that there is no infection. 

Yesterday she was still a bit groggy and wanted to do a lot of sleeping and now she is more alert and wants to jump around, which she is not supposed to do.  And she is not supposed to get her bandage wet, and go figure it is raining for the next several days. 

Next time we go somewhere and Baby puts up a fight you better believe I will listen to her, it was an accident, couldve happened anywhere I suppose, but she knew she didn't want to go in there and I made her.  She clearly knew best on this one.  I love Baby and hope she feels better soon! 

PS This is why I wasn't able to blog yesterday, had so much going on, even though I technically "missed" a day, I am writing two entries today to make up for my bucket list item to blog every day for 1 year. 

Baby & I appreciate you dropping by!  :)

Saturday, August 11, 2012

It's been a Pinterest weekend at our house

Whoever invented Pinterest was a pure genius!  I am a huge fan of the site!!  You can pin things to a different board, name them yourself, and go back and use some of the things you pin for later.  For example, recipes.  I have made several recipes from Pinterest, and this weekend,  we made two recipes from Pinterest.  I made a new breakfast casserole, here it is:

Crescent rolls on the bottom of a sprayed pan, then sausage crumbles, 2 cups of mozzarella cheese, then whip 6 eggs and 1 cup of milk together pour over the top and bake on 425* for 20 minutes. Season with salt and pepper over the top.
Crescent rolls on the bottom of a sprayed pan, then sausage crumbles, 2 cups of mozzarella cheese, then whip 6 eggs and 1 cup of milk together pour over the top and bake on 425* for 20 minutes. Season with salt and pepper over the top.

I added mushrooms and green onions on half, our half, as Brittanee doesn't like that on her side.  And I used Monterey Jack cheese instead of Mozarella.  Yummy.

Brittanee made some kind of dip with refried beans and cheese.  Not very weight loss friendly, but was very good! 

One dish I discovered months ago, which has become a favorite of ours is, Tuna Noodle Casserole. 

Tuna Noodle Casserole

Prep Time:
35 Min
Cook Time:
25 Min
Ready In:
1 Hr

Servings (Help)

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Original Recipe Yield 4 servings

Ingredients

  • 3 cups uncooked egg noodles
  • 1 cup chopped celery
  • 1/3 cup chopped onion
  • 1/4 cup chopped green pepper
  • 1 tablespoon vegetable oil
  • 1 (10.75 ounce) can condensed cream of mushroom soup, undiluted
  • 1 cup shredded Cheddar cheese
  • 1 cup milk
  • 1 (12 ounce) can tuna, drained and flaked
  • 1/2 cup mayonnaise*
  • 1 (2 ounce) jar diced pimientos, drained
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt

Directions

  1. Cook noodles according to package directions. Meanwhile, in a skillet, saute the celery, onion and green pepper in oil until tender; set aside. In a saucepan, combine the soup, cheese and milk. Cook and stir over low heat until cheese is melted.
  2. Drain noodles; place in a large bowl. Add the celery mixture, soup mixture, tuna, mayonnaise, pimientos and salt. Pour into a greased 8-in. square baking dish. Bake, uncovered, at 350 degrees F for 25-30 minutes or until heated through.

I highly recommend this recipe if you like tuna!  It is delish!! 

***If you are not on Pinterest and would like to become an addict as I have become, let me know and I will send you an invite.  You have to be invited to be a Pinner, and I will be glad to welcome you into my Pinning Corner.  Happy Pinning!!! 


Friday, August 10, 2012

New Beginnings

Yep, it's pretty much time to let some things and people go.  You know when that happens or needs to happen you have so many "what if's" stuck in your head, but if you are like me you always do the Pro and Con list and if the Con's outweight the Pro's it is wayyyy past time to say See Ya Later. 

It seems I have been doing a lot of "de-cluttering" if you will this year and I must say I am a much happier individual for it.  Now I just need to get back on track in a lot of areas that I have been neglecting for one reason or another. 

Just some of the things I will be working on from now til the end of the year:
*Socializing more
*Trying to meet new people
*Making a budget and trying to adhere to it
*Of course losing weight
*Writing a book or short story
*And of course, raising some hell when I can.  :)

A few inspiring quotes on New Beginnings

“I guess it's going to have to hurt, I guess I'm going to have to cry, And let go of some things I've loved to get to the other side
I guess it's going to break me down, Like fallin when you try to fly,
Sad but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye”
Carrie Underwood

“No, this is not the beginning of a new chapter in my life; this is the beginning of a new book! That first book is already closed, ended, and tossed into the seas; this new book is newly opened, has just begun! Look, it is the first page! And it is a beautiful one!”
C. JoyBell C.

“The chief beauty about time
is that you cannot waste it in advance.
The next year, the next day, the next hour are lying ready for you,
as perfect, as unspoiled,
as if you had never wasted or misapplied
a single moment in all your life.
You can turn over a new leaf every hour
if you choose.”
Arnold Bennett

“Although no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.”
Carl Bard

As I stated early on in this blog, I love quotes, and you will see them a lot in my blogs!  Hope some of the words on this page have meant something to you.  Let's toast to our new beginnings!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Holiday World 2012 Tour

Every year since I can't remember when, my sister, Marilyn, has gotten my daughter Brittanee & I a season pass to holiday world.  We used to go every other weekend at the least, and this is the first time ever that today, August 9th, was the first time we used our season pass this year. 

It has been wayyy too hot for me to go and Brittanee lives in Brownsburg Indiana now.  So we didn't make much use of our pass this year.  I would love to have a season pass from Burdette, closer to home.  Maybe next year. 

Today we were there when the water park opened (our favorite thing).  We rode the bumper cars, scrambler, old tyme cars and raging rapids.  It was a fun day.  Any day in the sun and water is considered a fun day to me.  The only place I got burnt was my nose, so now I resemble Rudolph.  But we had a good time!! 

See ya next year Holiday World and Pat Koch! 

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

How do you see yourself?

Most of you who know me, and know me well, know I am a pretty easy going, laid back kinda person...until you cross me and then my claws and fangs come out and trust me, it isn't pretty after that. 

I have some flaws (ok a lot) that I am trying to work on.  One thing is my second guessing myself at times, believe it or not, I am seeing improvement here and there.  It doesnt all magically disappear overnight, but I can see little steps of improvement in the right direction.  Also, there is a medication that helps with that.  LOL. 

Saw this quote today on Facebook and thought it was share worthy.  It made me think, which category do I fall under.  I would say I am the philospher in this statement.  Not sure if that is considered good or bad in the real scheme of things, I am ok with it, and I guess that is all that really matters.  :)  How do you see yourself?  Feedback is welcome.

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An inspirational thought….A pessimist sees only the dark side of the clouds, and mopes; A philosopher sees both sides, and shrugs; An optimist doesn't see the clouds at all - he's walking on them. ~Leonard Louis Levinson

Which one are you?
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One last note on second guessing, I have been struggling since taking this new job if I had done the right thing, started at the right time, etc.  It appears that I have and am now at peace with my decision and think there are many great paths in my future.  Looking forward to (hopefully) retiring from there.  Yea, I know, I thought this last time at Springleaf, but things are so different here, and you know what I have decided to give it my all and see what is at the end of the rainbow. 

Here are some tips, if you too, at times, have a problem of second guessing yourself.  Hope this helps and provides some inspiration to you, as it has to me.

1. Trust yourself.
Making a decision sometimes forces you to grow in areas where you’re not comfortable. When you second guess yourself it’s usually because of that discomfort. But it’s important to remember that change happens incrementally. Even if you’re not seeing an obvious positive result yet, it might be coming. And your broader intentions led you there for that reason.
2. Choose a new thought.
Stop entertaining the idea of having made a wrong decision. There is no power in that. Instead, know that things are working out for your good and that you are learning and growing while you find your bearings.
3. Assess what you’re learning.
Because we are always in a state of flux, there may very well be things you will do differently the next time. Ask yourself, if I had to do it over, what would I do differently? And then congratulate yourself because this is how new behavior is born! You can’t learn if you’re not playing the game.
4. Get comfortable with mistakes.
There is such a thing as grace. Time gives us an opportunity to fix all sorts of things we think we may have screwed up. There is power in simply letting things go and deciding to re-evaluate them at a future date.
Ask yourself “What if I did make a wrong decision? Is it okay for me to have made a mistake?” And then let it go. Getting comfortable with making mistakes could have entirely been the lesson! But we are always making the best decisions we have access to at the moment.
5. Finally, go easy on yourself.
Like a friend of mine likes to say, “Life is a hard hat zone. We are always under construction”.
You are not who you were yesterday and you are not who you will be tomorrow. So, make peace with that. Life is full of second chances. We are always in a state of evolution.
In learning how to walk, you had to crawl first, and maybe you wobbled and skinned your knees a few times. But eventually, you found your bearings and trusted your stability. As tiny as you were, you were able to stand straight and put one foot in front of the other as you moved forward.
Not so far off from what it’s like as an adult.


Always be a first-rate version of yourself,
instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.
- Judy Garland

Until next time, remember to Shake Your Groove Thang......

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

The A B C's of Kazi

I am going to try to describe myself one letter at a time, hopefully I can come up with something for each letter.  Then my challenge to YOU, is to do the same about yourself, let me know how you fare. 

*A-Accepting, Angry (at times), Anxious (almost all of the time)
*B-Bitchy (at times), Bloomington, Basketball
*C-Caring, Crazy, Coffee drinker, Cat lover, Crocs lover, Capricorn
*D-Dog lover, Dizzy, Dieter (for life), Dangerous, Desperate Housewives, Dolphin, Dirty Dancing, Dr Seuss Lover
*E-Eager to learn new things and meet new people
*F-Forgetful, Forever Friends, Feisty
*G-Girl, Generous (at times), Gaylord Opryland Hotel
*H-Hateful (can be), Hungry (a lot), Humble, Humorous, Hugger (not trees), Honest (most of the time, Happily divorced
*I-Important to some people, Ice cream lover, IU all the way!!
*J-Jammies (love to wear them), Jelly, Justice, Judgemental (I am human, partly), Jokester, Jackie Collins fave author
*K-Kind (mostly), Kazi (always)
*L-Likeable, Loveable, Lasting Friendships (some that are keepers),
*M-Messy
*N-Naughty (you dont believe this right?), Nook Lover, Nashville
*O-Open minded, Original, Organized (somewhat), Opinionated, On time
*P-Puzzled, Playful, Pleasant, Popcorn lover, Pizza, Peanut butter pie lover, Peanut butter pretzel lover, Pinterest Lover, Pool lover, Photo lover, Peace Signs,
*Q-Quiet (at times), Quick wit (most of the time),
*R-Restless, Rude (can be), Right (at times), Risk taker ...NOT,  Rhyming poems, Reader,
*S-Silent (at times), Silly (all of the time), Sentimental, Sensitive, Swimmer,
*T-Talkative (at times), Tender, Testy (at times)
*U-Understanding, Underestimated (some times)
*V-Vacation lover, Vectren worker
*W-Wear Glasses, Worships on occasion
*X-
*Y-Young & the Restless
*Z-

I can not think of a single word for 2 letters!  Let's see how you do with this.  Let me know your progress.  I have a new assignment I must start on right away, I have to people watch and start writing about a new character.  I am off to get ready for work now, but hope to have my assignment completed by the weekend. 

Have a groovy day!   Thanks for showing up at Kazi's Konnection, looking forward to the next time our paths cross!

Monday, August 6, 2012

One thing I dearly miss on my new job.....

It seems that no one that I have come in contact with in the 9 weeks since I have been in my new job, are huggers!!  I miss when you are having a "blah" kinda day and you look at your friend across the aisle and say "I think I need a hug" or they say this to you. 

I am not saying they aren't approachable, some folks have been quite nice and I am settling in and making some friends.  Sounds like high school, right?  It's not.  It's a nice place to work, some things I would change if I could, but overall it's a decent place to spend 8 hours.   I just miss my hugging friends :(. 

Maybe this will change, but I won't hold my breath on this one, because I don't like to turn blue and pass out.  Until next time, keep your feet on the ground and find someone to hug!!  It might just make their day, it would mine....just sayin......

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Bucket List of Challenges

Usually in the past when I have made my bucket list, I try to cram a lot of things in a short period of time.  I am sad to say that I never completed my 100 movies by the end of the year, or in my extended time frame either.  It was fun while it lasted, I was able to enjoy so many movies I had never seen. 

I have some new challenges for myself to hopefully be completed by December 15, 2012.  Here is my list:

*Watch 20 movies I have never seen before
*Watch 10 TV shows I have never watched
*Eat at 5 restaurants I have never been to
*Read 8 books-4 from authors that I love , 4 from authors I have never read before
*Write a short story
*Achieve my goal weight by Dec 15, 2012
*Make 5 new friends
*Keep up with this blog for 365 days
*Save at least $200

I decided shorter bucket lists throughout the year may keep me on track and able to complete my goals better.  So here is the start, or end, of my 2012 bucket list.  I think I can, I think I can complete this list!!  :) 

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Surviving the first week poem

I survived the first week of my new job on the phone
By myself, me alone

I dealt with issues no classroom training prepares you for
Never a dull moment, but at the end of my shift, I am racing for that door

To a more relaxing enviornment, prop up my feet and just resting
No more in our own little training group, no longer nesting

I feel I have learned a lot taking these calls this week
Some customers made me laugh, some were rather bleak

People are what makes the world go around, its true
Some are in the same boat we are, some are much different from me or you

The key here is everyone needs to be treated with a smile and a kind word
Even though they may be on the other end, acting like a turd

You would be so surprised if you start out with a gentle voice
They soon calm down, stop ranting and raving, they have no other choice

You may not always be able to do what they want done, or say what they want to hear
But you can control the conversation, most of the time, just take time to listen, dear

Not all customers are going to be mad, some will call and tell you how pleasant you were
and how helpful you have been
Your supervisor may get a followup call about you every now and then

My favorite calls so far have been when customers call and dont know why their bill is so high
When the temps outside have been well over 100, when you walk outside you feel like you're gonna die

When you use your air condtioner at all, let's face it you are going to have a bill
Do customers really think we just pull consumption numbers out of a hat, or spin some kind of wheel?

Do me a favor when you get your bill in the mail, open it, read it and then give us a call
So many people call in and admit they never open their bill, but yet they want to bawl

With being able to view and pay your bills now online, thru the phone, or at a paysite
So many options, just choose one, right?

We are all in this together, us providing a service that you can not live without
You calling in, asking questions, paying your bills, thinking you have to scream and shout

Let's work together, me and you
We can forge ahead just us two

On the phone trying to work things out, payment arrangements, paying your bill
I promise to keep my cool if you will?

Customer Service is where it's at
It is a lot of this and a lot of that

Here's to my two month anniversary at this new place
In 10 years will everyone know my face?

For the most part people are nice and say hey
This is the end of the poem, ok?


Friday, August 3, 2012

I highly recommend this book

Until Tuesday: A Wounded Warrior and the Golden Retriever Who Saved HimOf course, I am a huge animal fan, and an even bigger dog story fan.  I am currently reading this book right now, and I would highly recommend this book.  I have a Nook Color so most books I read now are on there, much cheaper.  This is actually a paper book I found cheap, after searching for it for months, I finally found this treasure a couple of months ago at Sam's. 

This book has brought many emotions out, one minute I am smiling, one minute I have tears rolling down my cheek.  Yes, it is that kind of book. 

Happy Reading! 
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Thursday, August 2, 2012

Lol, Roflmao, Btw, Fb, Bbl.....

What did we ever do before texting and cell phones?  I can't even remember life without a cell phone.  I was one of those people that said I would never own one, then I was told when I was diagnosed as having Severe Cold Urticaria in 2001 that I HAD to get a cell phone for medical reasons.  And so my love affair with cell phones started. 

Of course, when I first started out I was a Sprint customer with a flip phone, one after the other. I switched to AT&T which was Cingular at the time in 2006, and I continued to buy flip phones, ones that did more things as the technology world kept updating.  In summer of 2010,  I became an Iphone person and now I would never go back to any other kind of cell phone. 

While there are some that like Iphones and some that do not, it is just like anything else, it is a manner of opinion.  The main reason I am sold on Iphones is this phone can do absolutely everything!  And so much more that I don't even know about, how to do, which I am sure if I ever sat down to actually read the manual it came with, I would be in even more awe. 

Those that know me well, know I don't much like to "talk" on the phone, but I am a text-a-holic.  Always have been.  It gets me in trouble at times, when I try to sneak a text at work (not at this job but a previous job), but I do not text and drive.  I do talk and drive on occasion, sometimes if I am in the middle of a lengthy conversation I will pull over.  No need to be in an accident over a simple text. 

Yes, being an Iphone owner, and I pay for my daughter's as well, can be expensive, but as I tell people it my only luxury each month and I am not willing to give that up.  I was able to keep up the payments during my 11 months of unemployment and that is something I will fight to keep til the bitter end.  Priorities. 

What did we do before we shortened every conversation we have in text land?  Just a few examples that I use daily:
*Idk=I don't know
*Bay=Back at ya
*Bfd=Big freakin deal
*Ez=Easy
*FBF=facebook friend
*FWB=friends with benefits
*Hagd=Have a good day
*Bbl=Be back later

Just to name a few text "shorts."  Every texter seems to have a language all of their own, as long as the receiver knows what you mean, it is all good.  You could say something that you think means one thing and the receiver may get it and think you mean something completely different.  Please be careful with how you respond to texts, you may end up offending someone, and not mean to. 

I say text away friends!  Be careful!!  CYA L8R!  Or as Christian Grey would say "L8R'S BAYBEEE."

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Is it really over?

I think we fell in love the moment our eyes met
We had our ups and downs, but we aren't ready to end us yet
Many tears have been shed, for both joy and sorrow
Will we say goodbye and end this today or tomorrow?
When I think of going our separate ways
I feel sad as if in a daze
But if this is the road we must take
I hope our friendship lasts for goodness sake
You have been more than a best friend, it's true
You know what to do when I feel blue
Taking my hand in yours while we stroll thru the park
Watching the sun set and sitting in the dark
Singing out of tune is something we loved to do
Now I will be the one singing...without you
I wish nothing but the best for you, always and forever
We are now over, our relationship we must sever
Thank you for making me laugh til I cried many a time
And putting up with me and my rhyme
I will never forget you, your smile and that twinkle in eye
It really is time, lets just say goodbye
No, not forever, just a short while
Take time to think, before you phone or dial
Keep the faith and hold your head high
We were truthful with each other, never a lie
Goodbye my sweet, sweet dear
My heart will always hold you near
Let us never forget the times we shared
And how long we both cared
I love you now and always will
Now, what was your name again, is it Bill?
I know your name, I am just messing with you once more
Until we close our hearts and that proverbial door