Stress and the Average Bear

Stress has seemed to find me around every corner lately.  I won't bore you with the details, but I am not who I was say 3 months ago.  That has good and bad with it.  I want to feel my happy go lucky self again. 

When I was unemployed for almost a year, I was content on how things were.  I managed to pay my bills on time, took care of doctor's appointments for me and my mom, was able to go to Brittanee's graduation, vacation, etc.  Lots of things I wanted to do, I was able to do.  Without having to ask off from work, because at the time I wasn't working.

Our last few months of Springleaf, when we were "harvesting" we all couldn't wait to go on unemployment, we hated what we were doing at the time.  Upon being on unemployment, maybe the first two months were ok, after that I felt like I was a bum.  I looked for work, I tried to network with people I knew, I sent hundreds of resumes, and still nothing.  I began to hate being on unemployment. 

Being on unemployment took me out of the socialization part of my life, which I never knew how much I missed, until towards the end of my unemployment. 

Being back to work now, and making new friends has been a good thing for me.  I think I am having trouble "fitting" in after all this time.  I have made some friends and have had many a good laugh.  The group of people that I now work with are class act, but I miss the Springleaf people a lot, we were together 8 years.  Still talk to a few, but still miss a lot!  We were like family.  Who knows in time, I may feel like that at Vectren. 

Our 9 week training has been intense and I have learned so much!  Still have a lot to learn but I feel already I have come a long way.  With this job comes stress too!  I am trying to overcome all of this and not let it define me.  I am stronger than that!!