Here's my confession and diagnosis...

As many of you know, I haven't been writing much lately, and I haven't started my day on Facebook with fun little sayings from other people or originals from yours truly.  Just haven't felt like it.  What started out to be a good 2012 in many facets of my life, a few things have set me reeling. 
*Being unemployed for almost 11 months....and how that made me feel
*Landing a job and having extensive training
*Meeting new people at my new work environment
*As I mentioned in an earlier post, not having the socialization I used to.  We used to go out to dinner once a month, a large group of friends.  That won't happen anymore, for me, anyway, I've cut ties with some of them and am not looking back.  No need for that. 

With those few examples, to let you have a small peek into why I have been feeling the way I have for the last 2 months.  Then enter the BIG picture.  I have been pondering and pondering why I have felt so depressed and NOTHING came to mind...until a few days ago, and then it HIT me hard.  I always listened as other people spoke of this, and thought (like I am sure a lot of other people do too) that this would never happen to me. 

Well, friends, guess what I am suffering from something called E.N.S.  What is that?  It is called Empty Nest Syndrome.  Now, let me explain.  I know Brittanee was away in college for 4 years, 2 1/2 hours away, but she always came home in the summer time and we always went to either Burdette or Holiday World every weekend.  With her internship and getting ready to enter the real world, she has only been home one weekend.  Which I understand, and it sucks out loud, that the only car we have right now may not make to Indy, so I haven't been able to go and visit since she has moved there. :(  I miss our summmer time together!  There I said it!  I had been thinking about this for some time but when she came in last weekend, we went to Burdette and Westsiders, it hit me when she and my grandcat left, this is why I have been feeling this way.

I have been asking different folks to go with me to the pool and Holiday World and no one has the love of the sun and water as I do, this is why I have been asking.  This is why I may have sounded overly needy to some of you.  No one ever wants to go. 

Here's the thing most of you know, I am pretty easy going, laid back, kind of person, I don't ask for much.  We don't always need to go to dinner, we don't always need to see a movie, we don't always have to do anything that costs money, just hang out sometimes.  Nothing fancy.  I need this from time to time!  *Take note I am asking for something!!

Now that I have realized what this is, I am dealing with it and moving on.  I am still missing our summer together, but am not going to let that hold me back any longer.  I love my time in the water and sun, it really is my "happy place" and yesterday I got 4 hours of complete happy.  Brittanee will be coming home this weekend for 3 weeks and we will make use of that time wisely, trust me. 

Thanks for your understanding, patience, and encouraging texts and emails during this time!  I know some of you have been worried about me because I haven't been my happy self, well, brace yourself because this is all about to change!  Now when I smile, I can actually mean it!