Friday, May 31, 2013

It hasn't really set in yet

Posting for Friday, May 31st, 2013

Driving the new Toyota Corolla S is like living the dream.  It rides so smooth.  I have looked over the manual twice so far and have learned simple things how to program my radio, how the controls on the left side of my steering wheel control the radio, where certain buttons are, etc. 

There are so many things I don't know about her yet, yes my new car is a female.  I racked and racked my brain for a name for her, I kinda of liked Sylvia because she is silver, but that wasn't a hit, so she is just named Silver Princess.  That she is, a true princess.

I filled Silver Princess up for the first time yesterday, driving off the lot they gave us a 1/2 of tank of gas.  Drove about 1/4 out so it was down to a 1/4.  So for 3/4 of a tank that cost me $31.30.  It was so nice to get in and have a gas gauge that actually works.  The one on the Rav4 was a guessing game, I would have to stop by Thorntons every few days to get about $9 worth of gas or so, so I wouldn't run out. 

I am very picky where I park now, one thing I can already tell is that I will be getting a lot more exercise now, parking far away.  That is a good thing! 

Wise choice, this Toyota Corolla S was!  So far so good my friends!  She is really mine, if this isn't real, I don't wanna know--so don't pinch me!!

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Everything is taken care of at the....(gulp) 11th hour

Posting for Thursday, May 30th, 2013

Waiting for my doctor to fill out the short term paperwork to 1) get approved for the 2 weeks I have been sick, 2) wanting to get paid, 3) having a job when I got back, and 4) because that is his job, has been such an ordeal!  I never knew paperwork could stress me out as much as it has but it has!  And here's the kicker, I am supposed to watch my stress levels!! 

Received call from my case worker this morning, John, from Metlife, informing me they FINALLY received the paperwork faxed over by the doctor but the were only approving me til May 26th, WTH?!  They needed additional info from my doctor.  Oh no, here we go again, I thought! 

I was on my way to the doctor's office anyway to pick up a damn note to say it was ok for me to return to work on Monday.  This entire thing has been a nightmare, trust me, don't ever get sick!  Anyway, I get another call from Metlife telling me they were able to obtain the rest of the info they were seeking and approved me thru June 2nd.  Thank God, I may just get paid on time!  That would be wondermous!! 

Then Metlife informed me to get the doctor's note and drop it off with my supervisor TODAY, though I knew better, I decided to take it to her, she didn't want it, wanted me to wait til I come in on Monday.  Good thinking. 

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Soooo upset with my doctor

Posting for Wednesday, May 29th, 2013


As most of you know, I have been off of work since May 17th, at first thinking I had a heart condition...but alas, we found out I have a heart!  He is in charge of a simple task of filling out and faxing the short term disability paperwork to make sure that I will get paid for the last 2 weeks.  Is that really too much to ask?  I saw him yesterday and he promised he would fax it for me last night or first thing tomorrow.  Did he do what he said he would do?  Of course not! 

I had to lower myself to call thru the doctor on call after hours because my doc was not cooperating.  He was the one on call and again promised he would fax in a little bit.  I am dying here!  I am not supposed to be having any undue stress, yea right?!

I wanna scream!!!!!!!!!!

Worst day/Best day of my life

Posting for Tuesday, May 28th, 2013

Today started out as any other Tuesday except two things were going to happen, one-no matter what, and the second thing I had hoped, prayed, lost much sleep over willing it to happen. 

First was a follow up appointment with my doctor to get a release date to go back to work, which that turned out ok.  I learned I had a blood clot in my leg where the heart cath had been done 8 days earlier.  I thought I was going to die, I asked Dr Yagodich that very question, which he laughed heartily and said "no" it would take about 1 month to get over completely.  He suggested I take Tylenol for the pain and put a heating pad on my leg.  I thought he was crazy but I thought I would try it, because the pain trying to lay down on that side is more than I could bear at times. 

While I was in the to see the doctor, I got the other call, the losing sleep over call.  About one of cars I test drove and the salesman was asking me to call him back.  Not thinking of anything about it one way or the other, I called him and he told me the loan didn't go through as it turned out.  Disbelief, horror, sadness, dull aching deep within me, many ugly things came to light how I was feeling.  I thanked him for trying to help me, ended the call and drove home in udder despair and sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach.

After deciding to go to another place to look at other cars, I got that call that changed everything.  That same salesman (that broke my heart hours before) offered me a much better deal, nothing short of a miracle.  The Rav4 served us well but it was, truthfully, on its last leg, and truth of the matter was, we needed a more reliable mode of transportation. 

I test drove a Jeep Grand Cherokee Limited Edition 2005, I think.  I was in love with that but after hearing about it being a potential gas hog I moved quickly away from that.  One salesman in Hendo tried to talk me into a brand new Dodge Dart, although I sat in it, I was not impressed.  Sure, it had cool features and was a sports car, but to be honest, I am past my sports car days or feeling like I need one.  I looked at a Ford Focus, Fusions--the one car I thought I always wanted, but up close and personal I soon discovered neither were for me.

Then we went to Kenny Kent Toyota while they were closed, I fell in love with a 2009 Toyota Corolla, it was a turquoise-ish blue and it looked like a sports car.  I was in love with it!  I had to test drive it!  The next day I went to test drive it and it had already been sold!  So, I test drove some other cars, sure that nothing would mean as much to me as that turquoise car that seemed to be screaming my name the day before. 

I was wrong.  I test drove a 2011 Toyota Corolla S, that had been dealer driven only with 30,000 miles on it.  I liked it.  I also drove a white Mazda 6 and it had many bells and whistles on it, including a Bose stereo system, it was kick ass!  I am not a fan of white or black cars for that matter, but this one was sharp.  I regret that I didn't take a picture of it!  I didn't like how it felt driving it.  So, it was back to the drawing board!

I went back to look at that Corolla again.  Loved it!  Wanted it!  So, my friends, that is the car I drove off the lot with.  It is Classic Silver with Dark Charcoal interior.  I now have a CD player again and though this car doesnt have as many bells and whistles as did the 2008 Mazda6 it is perfect for me.  A little more than I wanted to pay but I know Toyotas are dependable and that is all I will buy in the future. 

Never give up!  Good things do happen when you least expect it or think things can't go your way!  This day proved that very lesson to me!

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Memorial Day

Posting for Monday, May 27th, 2013

In past years I remember cookouts, picnics with family, etc, this year was just your run of the mill kind of day.  Some errands.  Not feeling well.  Anticipating my doctor's appointment the next day and being released to go back to work.  Still in pain in my right leg, nothing seems to help it.  So over this!  Want my life back!

Oh yea, and sadness hit in full force, when I went to Toyota thinking I was going to test drive that cute little 2009 teal color Toyota Corolla and it was already SOLD.  My heart broke in a million little pieces.  True story.....if you drive by that Toyota dealership, please be careful not to run over my heart, what was left of it!

Sunday, May 26, 2013

A new car in my future?

Posting for Sunday, May 26th, 2013

I am not sure how many people know that I currently drive a 1996 Toyota Rav4.  We bought it from Audobon Chrysler in Henderson 10 years ago, and although it has been a good car, no major repairs since we have had it, a few minor things it had to go to the shop (or car doctor, if you will) from time to time.  It was originally my mom's car and I still had my beloved Pontiac Grand Am. 

When my Grand Am starting giving me fits, and it was too expensive for me to have it fixed, I sold it to a teenaged boy.  Then I took over as the primary driver of the Rav4 (which I like to refer to as "the little toy.")  Reminds me of those old timey cars at Holiday World. 

I was looking for cars online and came across this enticing 2005 red Jeep Grand Cherokee Limited Edition and decided to take it for a spin.  I was all set to sign the papers to take it home but we couldn't get the payments low enough for me to afford.  The sales people were trying their best to talk me into a brand new Dodge Dart, I wasn't having any of it.  For one thing, I don't need a little sports car.  Yes,  it was cool.  Yes, it had lots of bells and whistles but I didn't "love" it.  I didn't like the unprofessionalism of the staff this visit and therefore, we will NOT be buying any more cars from them in the future.  Our ties have been severed.

I have found another little jewel that I really want to test drive.  A teal color 2009 Toyota Corolla, more down my alley.  Time will tell if it was meant to be mine, I will let ya'll know if it is parked in my driveway, trust me.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Summer Bucket List Phase 1 (previously posted on Facebook)

Posting for Friday, May 24th, 2013
 
 
Summer Bucket List Part 1

As most of your know, I am famous for making bucket lists. This year I am doing them in phases, if you will. First part is I am challenging myself to read 10 books by August 1st. That gives me 71 days from today...only today I don't feel like reading.

Here are the titles I will be attempting to read and I will let you know when I am finished with each one.

1) Giant George by Dave Nasser
2) Let's Pretend This Never Happened ( A mostly true memoir) by Jenny Lawson
3) The Patron Saint of Lost Dogs by Nick Trout
4) Starting Now by Debbie Macomber
5) Stories I only tell my friends by Rob Lowe
6) Entwined with you (crossfire series #3) by Sylvia Day
7) Lady Chatterley's Lover by D.H. Lawrence
8) Homer's Odyssey by Gwen Cooper
9) Not Young, Still Restless: A Memoir by Jeanne Cooper
10) Does the Noise in My Head Bother You? by Steven Tyler

That seems like a lot of reading to do! After I am half way through I will introduce the next challenge on my bucket list. Until then keep your feet flat on the ground and keep turning that page! Make it a challenge for yourself to read this summer, it is good for the soul!
 
 
*****Update, I must change one book.  I must admit I was intrigued by #7 Lady Chatterley's Lover because I had heard over and over at one time it was banned.  I am about 100 pages in of over 700 pages and I can tell you that I would never make it through the entire book.  It is not my style of reading material, and quite frankly it bores me to tears.  I must find a replacement and will be searching for a replacement.  You must give me props for trying new authors, straying out of my comfort zone, however, if you will.  I am not so intrigued any more and will not waste another reading minute on such foolishness!

Back at it...the doctor again

Posting for Thursday, May 23rd, 2013

I woke up feeling the  normal symptoms and then....also the middle of my chest was hurting, I felt like I had eaten several spicy dishes (which I have hardly consumed anything) and I felt a real different shortness of breath.  I panicked, called the doctor, got an appt to be seen and my sister took me. 

Doctor said that I needed to stay on the steroid pack, it was the best meds for me for what I am experiencing but because of being on the steroids, it was causing these side effects, just what I needed!  So the good doctor prescribed me 2 new meds on top of the others I am taking.  Lord knows I hate to take medicine! 

I go for my followup on Tuesday, May 28th to see if I am any better, if not what the next plan of action will be, and when I can return to work.

A chill day

Posting for Wednesday, May 22nd, 2013

Brittanee went home around 6:30pm last night just amidst the thunderstorms we were having, amazingly it took her 3 hours and 7 minutes to make it her apartment and get this, not a drop of rain her way!  That is what I call lucky and a guardian angel was looking out for her, probably her Papaw.  :)

We took it easy this day, both of us catching up on much needed sleep.  My sister, Marilyn, was nice enough to go to the store for us, as we had NO food in the house. 

Not much to say, still felt the same on this day.

Family Doctor Visit Day


Posting for Tuesday, May 21st, 2013

Luckily Brittanee took another day off to take me to the doctor and then my mom to her eye doctor appointment. 

When seeing my family doctor, Dr Yagodich, he examined me, read the report from the 2 different hospitals and told me that he thinks I have inflammation in my chest wall and put me on a steroid pack, and thus I am starting short term disability at work at least til my next appointment with him. 

Nothing has changed from the reasons I first went to the hospital, my left arm hurts, my left hand is still numb, my heart hurts or chest I guess, I feel like I am not getting enough air, etc.  But that all seems to go hand in hand with my chest wall pain or whatever it is I am going through.  I just want to feel normal again!!

I have been tired all the time and feel like I never get enough sleep.  Hopefully I feel better soon!

Heart Cath a Success

Posting for Monday, May 20th, 2013

I was a nervous wreck when I awoke on Monday thinking about the fear of the unknown, a heart cath.  I was assured and reassured by the nurses that it was not a big deal with little to no pain.  Ok, I had to trust them, as I had nothing to go on. 

First they were going to move me to the heart floor, because for whatever reason when they admitted me, they didn't put me in the heart unit.  Then there was an issue about not having a heart lab open only one at 11:30 am and then that was filled just like that, so a Dr Casino, that did my mom's heart cath a few years ago, said that he had to have me transported to Deaconess downtown where they had several openings for a heart cath in a heart lab. 

They were trying to work out my mode of transportation if I would go in an ambulance or a wheelchair short bus mode.  I was hoping for the ambulance.  I got my wish.  But before the 2 ambulance drivers showed up, here at the end of my bed stood Dr Casino.  He asked me why I left St Mary's and I told him point blank, he said why go there in the first place.  Good question, Dr, good question.  I went there mainly because of my mom I knew she could get to St Mary's with no issues, Gateway, I knew she wouldn't get there very well. 

Dr Casino told me exactly how the procedure would go, what it would show, how I would feel, etc.  Very nice Dr!  He left my room at 9:55 and then walked in my 2 ambulance drivers, the funniest guys on earth!  They had such a great sense of humor, matched me on every turn, and that my friends, goes a long way with me.  We had several laughs, I was on pain meds so I was comfortable, except for part of the ride.  When the main driver would hit a bump the air conditioner would go out, when he hit another bump it would come back on.  The guy that rode back with me, Dean, cussed up a storm about the A/C. 

Going into the heart lab, felt much like prior surgeries I had, but this one I really was pain free with whatever they gave me in my IV and I knew everything that was going on, which was both strange and a good feeling all at the same time.  Watching my heart on a monitor pumping away and the thread like thing that was inserted to make sure no blocked arteries were present, was an amazing thing to see. 

Thankfully my heart is healthy, no stents needed.  Whew! What a relief.  Dr. Casino then told me I should explore neuro or gastro testing and to followup with my family doctor.  Yes, sir. 

I was in recovery for awhile, as the nurses had to hold pressure on the site where the needle and the thread like thing was injected into my body, so it would not bleed.  And while i was in there, Dr Casino went and talked to my mom to give her the full report.  Brittanee was at the dentist, so she missed this procedure and seeing Dr Casino. 

When I was taken back to my "holding" room, I had to lay still for 4 hours, that was the hardest and boringest thing to do, so I wouldn't bleed.  I had the most attentive nurse, a male nurse, Jae-Won, who checked me every 15 minutes while I was lying still.  He would come and poke around my wound site, check the pulse in my feet, take my blood pressure, then my pulse and oxygen level.  

He even ordered my lunch.  It was not very good, but he tried just the same.  He ordereded me beef and noodles, mixed veggies, coffee, some pears with lime jello on top of them and a dinner roll.  I ate very few noodles, most of the veggies, and all of the roll.  I asked him before he placed the order for just one single english muffin with margarine, I guess that wasn't on the menu for that time of day. 

I was discharged properly after my 4 hours holding time and they were all very nice to me.  I chose to walk out instead of being in a wheelchair, they ok'd it.  I felt after having to lie still for 4 hours I needed to walk.  It felt good and I was a little shaky.  But I managed.

From there I asked Brittanee to take me to Starbucks as I wanted a frap to celebrate my ordeals of the last 4 days of my life.  I am saying now that I am giving up Starbucks all together for 1 full month and I will re-evaluate their place in my life at that time.  I was a Starbucks addict and I think I gained a lot of weight partaking in their sweet drinks.  Anyway, we went thru the drive thru at First Ave, my mom wanted to try their strawberry frapp, I got a carmel frapp, and Brittanee got her passion tea, when we got up to the window to pay from the app on Britt's phone, the cashier said his wand to take the money from the Iphone wasn't working so therefore he had to give us all of our drinks for free.  Cha ching, that was $12 worth of free stuff, the next time we go through that drive thru he may no longer be working there.  :)

Brittanee then ran into Target to get my Motrin that Dr Casino wanted me to take for the next several days for pain.  And we went home and took a late nap.  Got up and watched Celebrity Apprentice and then went back to la la land. 

All in all being at Gateway and Deaconess main campus was like staying in a royalty hotel compared to that of St Mary's!

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Mom's Birthday

Posting for Sunday, May 19th, 2013

Happy 79th Birthday to my mom!  Remember we are not telling her that each of reading this, know how old she is.  Brittanee of course was here to help us celebrate, she had previously bought my mom an Iphone 4s for her early birthday gift, which my mom is still trying to learn how to use. 

I got her an outfit, a cute polka dot shirt, some capris, a Menard's gift card, a gift certificate for a pedicure, and a patriotic thing for the yard.   Brittanee gave her a Japanese maple tree, a patriotic spinner and something else I don't remember for Mother's Day.  She got me the red and white polka dot Keds I wanted.  I haven't gotten to wear them just yet though. 

We went to Outback for dinner with Marilyn, Big Mike, Little Michael, Angie, Macey, Thomas, & Matt.  Of course me, the birthday girl and Brittanee were there too.  We enjoyed a nice dinner.

  I wasn't feeling so well so we went to the ER at Gateway and after they did several tests they admitted me there with the understanding I would have the heart cath done first thing Monday morning.  Although I wasn't sure who was going to be doing the heart cath. 

Of course, at Gateway all of their rooms are private which is very nice.  I had a superb view of the city, but didn't much care.  When I got to my room, my mom & Brittanee looked out of the window to see a helicopter land.  I heard it but didn't feel like joining in the festivities to watch it. 

Like night and day it was, the care I received, how they treated me, the meds I got, etc.  It was great!  Well, you know as far as being in the hospital goes, and the RIGHT hospital. 

They woke me up every 2 hours drawing blood, taking my blood pressure, my pulse and oxygen levels.  They cared and it showed.  Yes, I made the best decision to go to Gateway. 

I felt bad that my mom had to spend the last few hours of her birthday with me at the hospital though.

Day two of St Mary's Saga

Posting for Saturday, May 18th, 2013



I was never woken up once during the night at ST Mary's, and when I woke up I was told I could have a light breakfast.  I ordered an english muffin and of course some crackers to hoard for later.  I don't remember the time that I finally wen to have my stress test but I had no warning so therefore wasn't able to alert my family or anyone, just taken away. I had fought so hard to be able to walk the treadmill for my stress test but when the time came I didn't have the strength to do so, so I had to have the chemical one done.  The doctor was ok, not real personable, but it wasn't Dr Muhammed.  His assistant Dylan, was great!  He told me that Dr Muhammed thought of himself as GOD, I kind of figured that when I didn't make the cut to be seen on the day I had to wait up for him.  I told him some of what I had experienced during my stay and he told me I should talk to the Nurse Supervisor.  Then for the last leg of the stress test I had to go for more xrays and they too told me to speak to the Nurse Supervisor.  So I did.

I didn't want my nurse in the room, however, she was right there.  I guess wanting to defend herself.  I didn't have many beefs with her personally as I did with the overall care.  For example, the night nurse, which wasn't the one in the room, gave my roommate 20 different meds in 20 little dosage cups, and left them on her table telling her to take them at her leisure.  Who does that?  I thought the nurse had to stay in the room til all the meds were dispersed, or at the very least, some of them out of 20!!!  Not the case here. 

I asked about my family doctor, I said that he usually comes to the hospital to see his patients, wasn't sure if he came on weekends or not.  I was told that he didn't come to the heart unit, they have people called "hospitalists" that come and see you not your family doctor.  This didn't make a bit of sense to me, but I was too sick to fight with them. 

The room was dirty.  When they would take my blood and say some gauge would fall on the floor with say dried blood on it, it would remain on the floor.  Talk about gross!! 

I asked my nurse once about being dehydrated because when the folks would come in to take my blood they would always comment on how dehydrated I was because it was hard getting my blood.  I have had problems with dehydration in the past many times and at times had to be hospitalized just for that reason and had to have fluids in an IV to help with dehydration.  The nurse said I was fine.  I did'nt need to worry said the people that took my blood were just saying that.  Yea right. 

Right before I went for my stress test I went to the bathroom, got so dizzy that I thought I might fall and was woozy all the way to the bed.  I told my nurse when she came in  and she said "be careful your blood pressure is a little low we dont want you to be taking a spill."  Uh neither do I!  Because I am almost certain I wouldn't like the care I would be given here!  OMG # I forgot there were so many of these moments!

So much later after my stress test this Dr comes to my room last name started with R don't remember and trust me, he was not that memorable.  Along with the nurse, Tracy, who trust me became quite attentive after the Nurse Supervisor chat.  He basically states I need a heart cath, I tell him I want to be discharged.  He doesn't like my answer, he says it is in my best interest to have it done, I say I want to be discharged.  He leaves the room, nothing more out of his mouth.  Nurse Tracy then says "If you leave you could take the chance of dying if you don't have this procedure."  You are really going to tell me such foolishness?  I wanted to scream and yell at her, the whole thing sounded absurd to me, they said the stress test showed a "false positive" and that is why I needed to have this heart cath.  Well, with my mom sitting right there, who take everything like that mega serious, she is all worried, thinking I should stay after her and Brittanee were wanting to break me out of this nasty hospital all along.  I wanted to strangle Nurse Tracy.  With her callous words I decided right then and there I was going home, dying or not. 

I never got any discharge papers, they didn't wheel me down in a wheelchair to the car, the only thing they uttered out of their stupid little mouths if you get to feeling worse come back to the ER. 

Oh yeah, St Mary's and I are def parting ways and I will be working on a very long letter to them shortly, kind of like this blog! 

A terrible, blurry day!

Posting for Friday, May 17th, 2013

I was looking forward to this day because Brittanee was coming home to celebrate my mom's birthday, 79 to be exact.  Shhh don't tell her I told you, she might not like that.  :)

Brittanee and I had planned on heading to Holiday World tomorrow for the first time this season, because my nice sister got us season passes again.  :)  How fun! 

I had stopped by Starbucks, got my usual steel cut oatmeal, a white chocolate mocha, and had a free coffee choice so I decided to try a small (or in Starbucks world a tall) vanilla coffee.  The vanilla coffee was so awful I took 2 sips to make sure it was really as nasty as I thought and then threw it away.  When I stray from my regular drinks it always turns out bad, not in my favor at all.  It was beyond groooossss!

I get to work, have to change passwords on some of my sign in screens, eat my oatmeal in a leisurely manner, take a few sips of my mocha.  Then it's time to sign in and take calls, I remember taking about 3 or 4, and then my world changed in an instant.  I couldn't get the words I wanted to say out, I started sweating, I was scared.  I remember telling this lady I would call her back because I didn't want to hang up on her, but I must admit I was feeling panicked. 

I wheeled back to tell Jerri I wasn't feeling well, she was on a call.  I tried to stand up and I was so shaky I thought I was going to pass out.  I waited for Gayle to get off the phone and then asked her to get my boss, Susie, because I was in trouble and needed help.  My thoughts were scrambled, I knew who I was and where I was, but my left arm and hand had went numb and my chest was hurting. 

Since I didn't have any transportation I had to go in an ambulance to the hospital.  Looking back it was embarrassing at the time I was in so much pain I didn't give a flying fig.  They took me to St Mary's (because I wasn't thinking that Brittanee was on her way and I know my mom gets lost at Gateway and this would be easier for her) and so we went.  Susie, my boss, followed behind us and came to the ER until my mom got there.  That was very nice of her!  I remember asking her over and over if I was going to get fired, she assured me I would not. 

The St Mary's ER was the nicest experience of the whole ordeal at St Mary's, which if you think about it is just plain sad!  While in the ER they took a chest xray, ekg, gave me nitro, pain meds, etc.  When I got to my assigned room, which they told me I would have a private room, I had a death watch roommate, not meaning suicidal but heart failure issues.  She got moved to a nursing home a few hours later which was a blessing in my book.

Imagine my surprise when I get to my bed and there is NO pillow.  I asked the first tech I saw about this and was told there was a "pillow shortage" they would have to try to find me one.  30 minutes or more, I kid you not, they "found" me a pillow in laundry. 

I take Xanax for anxiety and they withheld that from me because the doctor that was in charge of me didn't approve it.  My question on this if you fill out or give them all your surgeries you have in the past, the meds you are taking, etc, why withhold something you take on a daily basis?  It was unreal, instead they continued to pump me full of morphine which simply did nothing for me!  Or my pain!

I was also told to stay awake Dr Muhammed would be coming to see me and letting me know about the stress test they wanted me to take the following day, I was so tired, but stayed awake for the great Muhammed.  Finally, at 7:30 pm I asked, is the doctor still coming at which I was told "he has to" and he was on the floor and had 15 patients to see.  Guess what, in the end it turns out, I wasn't one of them.  Go figure.  I was supposed to see him before the stress test which again, I didn't.  I wasn't surprised at all, are you?

I got a 2nd roommate, her family was there awaiting for her arrival before she got to the room.  Her husband was in my space leaning over looking at my dinner plate telling me it all looked good.  Thank you very much now please go on your side of the room.  OMG.  Then the roomie arrived they all wanted her to order something from the menu which she declared she was not hungry, they begged her to order something, as they wanted to eat and didn't want to spend $6 on a guest plate.  OMG again.  Then they started talking about who was in prison and they were lucky they only got so many years, maybe that would straighten them out and there wouldn't be a next time.  REALLY?!  Then they started arguing, cussing....I was ready to bolt!   Of course, no techs or nurses came to see what was going on.  Then the husband sat on the portable toilet seat that the previous roommate had just pooped in and was never cleaned.  This was a circus and I didn't have to pay for the attractions!  Then the husband went and peed all over our bathroom seat, HELLO, they have public bathrooms in hospitals for a reason, no need to pee on patients seats!  I spoke very little to her.  Since she watched tv the entire time, once her crazy family left, and my tv was broken I played games on my phone.

Life at St Mary's sucks!

American Idol Finale


Posting for Thursday, May 16th, 2013

The day or night I have been waiting for since January, when American Idol's 12th season began, I had known Kree Harrison would make it to the finals, and that she did.  I must say the season finale show was lame, lame, lame!  Show opened with a voted off contestant Janelle singing with Band Perry, that was cool!  But really the other big star factor was disappointing to say the least, Frankie Vallie? Aretha Franklin via a big monitor? 

Now Keith singing twice was great!  And Kree singing with Keith Urban with Randy playing the guitar was pretty neat as well.  Mariah even sang and I think it was hilarious that Nicki Minaj never sang on Idol.  Wonder why?! 

Candace Glover won the title of American Idol and she deserved it, her vocals were something magical each and ever performance.  Kree was runner up but I see big things happening for her as well, and I will be buying her CD whenever it comes out.  That is a given.

Ending the show was JLO and (be still my heart) Pitbull.  And earlier Adam Lambert sang with Angie Miller which was a phenomenal performance!  I wish they would tour hear but they aren't coming this way :(. 

Kree will be performing at the Grand Ole Opry in Nashville on June 4th with Keith Urban, I so wish I could be there!

Melancholy kind of day

Posting for Wednesday, May 15th, 2013

First and foremost, 10 years ago today, we lost my dad to lung cancer.  I miss him a lot and think about him daily.  I can't believe its been 10 years already, he wouldve been 80 in October.  RIP dad, love you!

I was off this day and had a tooth pulled first thing in the morning, dreading it as I normally do, but it went off without a hitch.  Good thing.  After that I met Stephani at Wesselman's park to walk we walked quite a bit, 2 hours, I know.  It was fun.

Came home took a nap then did some running around with my mom.  We finished our evening at Chik Fil A and then on to Walgreen's to try the Celebrity Apprentice ice cream.  My mom tried Penn's the Chocolate Swirtle and I tried Trace Atkins the Maple Macadamia Mashup.  Not bad, if I say so myself.  Trace's is full out maple, sometimes a little too much, but I ate it anyway. 

A pretty good day off I must say!

Summer Quotes

Posting for Tuesday, May 14th, 2013

I hope your summer is just like a little box filled with surprises.

Summer meant watching cartoons all morning, roaming the neighborhood all day and going back home when the streetlights turned on.

Someone asked me what book I read of the summer. I replied with, "Facebook."

Summer is like the ultimate one-night stand...hot as hell, totally thrilling, and gone before you know it.

It's almost Summer! Time to find out what my friends with swimming pools have been up to since last summer...

Hope every one has a memorable 2013 summer, I certainly plan on it!

Oh Monday we have to start meeting like this

Posting for Monday, May 13th, 2013

This day I am happy to say flew by even for a Monday which was quite surprising!  Very good day all in all.  Til I came home and didn't feel too well and had to retire before 10 pm. 

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Happy Mother's Day

Posting for Sunday, May 12th, 2013

The first part of the day I spent going to an early morning movie to see Gatsby with Stephani and Ashley.  I didn't care for the movie, but enjoy hanging out with them! 

I then took Starbucks breakfast home for my mom and I.  We watched tv, took naps, just relaxed a bit.  I had cooked sauerkraut and country ribs in the crockpot which were yummy. 

We will get to celebrate Mother's Day next weekend when Brittanee comes to town for my moms birthday, May 19th.  :)

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Oh Happy Day!

Posting for Saturday, May 11th, 2013

What an all around great day!  First it started with breakfast with Becky at Bob Evans!  That was such a nice treat to have breakfast and catch up some.  Need to do it more often, and that is a fact!

From there I came home and took a nap.  Love me some sleep.  Then my mom and I got ready for lunch with Marilyn at Texas Roadhouse, again a day early for Mother's Day dinner.  It was a nice time as well.  MaKenzie had a horse show to go to and Matthew was at a boyscout event so it was just the 3 of us. 

From there my mom wanted to go to Shoe Carnival.  Then we ventured to JCPenney's where she bought some Addidas from Marilyn  to her for Mother's Day.  They are yellow and gray...to match her yellow purse.  LOL. 

Love my yellow wearing....gotta match....Mom!

I need to get that devil outta my head...

Posting for Friday, May 10th, 2013

I am sure you have heard the road to hell is paved with good intentions, right?  Well, my good intentions come and go lately, about losing weight.  I will be all gung ho for a week, then something happens and I am right back on that emotional roller coaster grabbing for chips, sodas, and chocolate. 

I need to get that devil outta my head that says "it is ok to have one of this, or that."  He seems to be taking up permanent residence right now and I want him gone!!  Any suggestions?

It is true, the early bird does get the worm.....

Posting for Thursday, May 9th, 2013

I must say working 4 10 hour days and getting that day off during the week is a nice perk.  I wish sometimes they would grant a Monday or Friday off but since that will never happen I will have to enjoy my random Tuesday, Wednesday or Friday off.  Ok.  I will learn to deal with it. 

So this Thursday was my day off and I decided instead of running errands like I usually do on my day off, to put them off from first thing in the morning til in the afternoon with my mom. 

First I took her out for breakfast for Mother's Day, I know it was early, but she refuses to go near any restaurants on actual Mother's Day, so we went there.  She enjoyed her omelet, I did not enjoy my raw pancakes, however.  I had ordered pecan pancakes and they came plain, I didn't send them back, because although they clearly were not that busy, they were a little on the slow side.  The waitress brought me some peanut butter to try to spread on my pancakes, it was interesting but not the taste for me. 

From there, we ventured to Kohl's.  I found these Keds that I am absolutely in love with, I will show a picture once they are in my possession.  They didn't have them, go figure, and I could have gotten 20% off of the sale price on them, but I guess it was the early birds that got my worm this time.

I talked my mom into looking at the purses, because that was what I intended to get her for Mother's Day, she just didn't know it.  She found a yellow purse, said she always wanted a yellow and a red purse.  I knew about the red purse, but who knew about the yellow purse?  This was perfect and then I found her a matching checkbook/wallet ensemble and she was sold, but now, she has nothing to open for Mother's Day. 

From there we went to the doctor for them to check her over, she had some concerns.  Then we got dinner and came home to eat it and watch American Idol.  A pretty good day.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

The world lost a wonderful actress

Posting for Wednesday, May 8th, 2013

I have been watching Young & the Restless for as long as I can remember and today Jeanne Cooper, who played Mrs Katherine Chancellor, for many years, went to heaven.  I knew she had been sick, still hasn't been announced what she had, it seems to me some form of cancer. 

Her son, Corbin Bernsen, who some may remember from LA Law, has a Facebook page that he kept fans up to date with the news of her going into the hospital and there is where I learned of her passing away yesterday as well.

I know, to some, it seems silly.  But she really was like part of the family, she was in our living room 5 days a week for years, and such a stand up lady.  Though, no, I didn't know her personally, her death touched me. 

You will be missed on Y&R, Mrs. C!  Rest in Peace!

Water works kind of day

Posting for Tuesday, May 7th, 2013

Ever have one of those days when you are emotional for no reason what so ever?  This described me to a T this day.  Something trivial, minute set me off and I was so upset about it, that when I had a couple of customers on the phone I was choking back tears.  At one point, I actually cried while I was on the phone, not sure if it was detected to the person on the other end of the phone, or will be part of a call monitor, in any case, I am glad that day is over!  I haven't felt that way in a long time. 

Loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong Monday

Posting for Monday, May 6th, 2013

I have an appointment that I have to go to on Friday so I had to make up some time earlier in the week so I won't get stuck working so late on Friday night.  I worked from 6am to 6pm with little sleep, which made for an extremely loooong Monday.  For some reason, Mondays are horrendously busy for us anyway, that part I didn't mind so much as we were kept busy, which in turn makes the days go by pretty fast.  I was exhausted when I got home though and think I crawled in bed that night before 10pm.

However, it was Pepper's birthday!  We had to do some celebrating.   She turned 2.  If you don't know who Pepper is, she is a miracle cat.  My daughter adopted her from the Spencer County Humane Society here in Evansville at Petsmart, July 9th, 2011.  Pepper is a polydactyl cat, which means she has extra toes on each foot, when she walks her front paws look like mittens.  Because she was so sick in her kitten years we chose not to have her declawed, and plus with extra digits just didn't have the heart to put her through that.  So....luckily Brittanee was reading on the internet and found something called Soft Paws for cats.  They are cute colored nail tips that fit over the cats nails and are relatively cheap.   So about every 6 weeks or so Pepper goes to get a manicure and pedicure, though she is not crazy about the process, she is pretty good about it. 

She got a remote control mouse that is so much fun I even liked it, she got a bigger bed because she is a growing girl (I call it a toddler bed), she got some balls with bells in them for plenty of entertainment until they roll under furniture never to be seen again, some kind of feather suction cup toy, and some lazer bird that is supposed to move according to motion detection--haven't figured that one out quite yet.  She seemed to like her presents and did'nt know where all the extra attention was coming from, but she seemed just fine with it.  Of course, she has to share her toys and bed sometimes with Teddy and Miss Kitty. 

Vectren Mobile App

Posting for Sunday, May 5th, 2013

Sign of the times, moving into the current times, Vectren now has a Twitter account and now they have added an App for Iphones or Droids.  This Vectren app right now is mainly to report outages but in time it will be able to let you pay your bills and do most, if not all of the same things you can do through Vectren.com. 

Many exciting things coming down the pike, just watch for it!  They are pondering having a Facebook page, but not something you will see very soon.  Gotta work out those proverbial kinks ya know?!

One Sided Madness

Posting for Saturday, May 4th, 2013


Here lately I have 2 folks that are in my life, with whom I would say I am fairly close to both,  however they are both very different.   I have listened to them both a time or two about lifes problems, ups and downs and when I need someone to vent off of, they play that "Aint nobody got time for that."  I know if I got in there faces and made them listen to me, both probably would.

I am thankful that everyone is different or how boring would this world be, but do I have to spell everything out all of the time geez.  It is almost borderlining on one of them having the "me" sydrome.  And we all know how much I hate those folks. 

They both are allowed to have bad days, but if I have one it is totally unacceptable.  It just aggravates me.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Not fitting in

Posting for Friday, May 3rd, 2013

Ever feel like you don't fit in somewhere?  That is how I feel.  Sure I go through the motions, but isn't life more than just going through the motions? 

I have been accused often of living in the past, work related, and I guess it is true.  But those people I worked with for so long were like a 2nd family to me.  I don't have the closeness I had with my old work family.  I am not sure if it would take me 8 years to feel like I belong at my present job or I am just wishful thinking. 

I know that being social with people at work isn't something that HAS to happen, I have just been a part of something like that everywhere I have worked. 

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Bills

Posting for Thursday, May 2nd, 2013

When you are little you can't wait to grow up, and then when you grow up you wish you were little again. 

I feel this way when I get paid.  Why, you ask?  Because when I get my paycheck I always have to pay bills before I can buy anything fun.  I know that is how the world works and what makes the world go around.  I just wish I didn't have so many. 

My bills are just basic ones.  Cable, cell, mortgage, water, insurance, etc.

One thing that has gotten extremely expensive is going to the grocery store.  I can't believe a family of 2 can spend $100 easily and not bring home a lot of food.  But when you think about having to buy toilet paper for $6 and paper towels for almost $10, a box of cereal for almost $5 and a gallon of milk for $4, those prices are just plain ridiculous!  Where is the cost of living raise?

In one sentence.  Bills are NO fun!

May Day

Posting for Wednesday, May 1st, 2013

Even though Spring is up on us, the first day of May, signifies that the pools will soon open and that my friends, is my favorite time of the year! 

I have to get this body in shape for a new bathing suit before I hit the pavement of Burdette Pool where I hope to spend most of my off days at.  Am soooo ready!

April showers brought May flowers, and we have some flowers to plant.  I have never planted anything or helped and with Brittanee gone, this should prove to be quite the experience.  I will let ya know how that goes.

Passwords of Life

Posting for Tuesday, April 30th, 2013

Have you really ever stopped to think about all the passwords you have for things and how many you must remember in your life? 

The other day when I was at work, it must have been that time, because all of my pop up boxes came up indicating it was time to change my passwords.  I have to have 6 different passwords for my work programs and many many more in my everyday life.

Just to name a few, I have a password for my laptop, for my internet, for my phone, for my Itunes, for my Apps, my bank account, the bills that I pay online, etc.

For the most part I remember them, sometimes I have to store the passwords in places, because I am getting older, ya know?!